And There Is Fraud at the Ballot Boxes, Stuffed with Lace Valentines and Fortunes from Automatic Scales, Dispensed with a Lofty Kind of Charity, as Though This Could Matter to Us, These Tunes Carried by the Wind from a Barrel Organ Several Leagues Away

Yes, I skipped John Cage's birthday this year. I went back to previous birthday posts, the music didn't work for me, I let the music down. Happens. I do owe you some links and I finished Lerner's Leaving the Atocha Station mid-afternoon Saturday, I needed to think about it at least last night before starting Searches and Seizures today because more Elkin excerpts made me realize it's September and I haven't reread the first of this year's scheduled Elkin. I sense an Elkin Excerpt Throwdown, or will at least try and spark an Elkin Excerpt Throwdown, you should hope so, it's in your interest, you can play too! Or not, that's a fine option too. Don't worry, there will not be an Elkin Excerpt Throwdown. So here, a post I worked on for hours Saturday night and finished Sunday morning to be posted on one of the slowest Sundays of the year, Sundays always the slowest day of the week anyway, the first Sunday of the new Motherfucking Helmetball League season. May Daimon Tiny Shit Snyder's Slurs go 0-16. Here, the original above plus ten cover versions on Mary's show early this morning.

But before the almost certainly not happening Elkin Excerpt Throwdown and the certain rereading of the three novellas of Searches and Seizure, one more excerpt from Ben Lerner's Leaving the Atocha Station because the novel's narrator resembles one of the versions of me I feed:

I was amazed to find myself protective of my poetry, comparing options' conduciveness to writing as though obliged to do so by my genius, a genius I knew I didn't have; no duende here, I would think to myself, checking my body for sensation, no deep song. But my research also taught me that the tissue of contradictions that was my personality was itself, at best, a poem, where "poem" is understood as referring to a failure of language to be equal to the possibilities it figures; only then could my fraudulence be a project and not merely a pathology; only then could my distance from myself be redescribed as critical, aesthetic, as opposed to a side effect of what experts might call my substance problem, felicitous phrase, the origins of which lay not in my desire to evade reality, but in my desire to have a chemical excuse for reality's unavailability. But wasn't my relationship with substance also fake? I never injected anything; if I started pissing blood, I'd go to a doctor, not to a bar; I planned to quit everything except social drinking, the appropriate dosage of pills, an occasional, whimsical smoke; I was destined to reproduce the bourgeois family, no matter how much I dreaded the prospect or wanted it postponed. Or was the lie, the claim that my excessive self-medication was simulated; was the lie that I was in fact bound for health and respectability and so should enjoy getting fucked up while I could; had I stepped into the identity I projected, the identity of an addict; had the effort to prolong my adolescent experimentation indefinitely shaded imperceptibly into fearsome if mundane dependence, had mythomania become methomania?

    

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• Broadsnark's things you might have missed.
• Maggie's weekly links.
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• Yes, the one of you who's asked, I did disappear it. It's not dead, just gone from here. I'll write about it, certainly, whether it appears here or not is part of the equation.
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• The narrator of the Leaving the Atocha Station always carries in his backpack the Selected Ashbery, hence the poem below and blogpost title above.
• Oh, in one brilliant paragraph, the narrator of the novel provides the best distillation of why Ashbery works for frauds like the narrator and me I have ever read. Go find it.

 





CHINESE WHISPERS

John Ashbery

And in a little while we broke under the strain:   

suppurations ad nauseam, the wanting to be taller,   

though it‘s simply about being mysterious, i.e., not taller,   

like any tree in any forest.

                                           Mute, the pancake describes you.

It had tiny roman numerals embedded in its rim.

It was a pancake clock. They had ’em in those days,

always getting smaller, which is why they finally became extinct.   

It was a hundred years before anyone noticed.

                                                                     The governor general

called it “sinuous.” But we, we had other names for it,   

knew it was going to be around for a long time,

even though extinct. And sure as shillelaghs fall from trees   

onto frozen doorsteps, it came round again

when all memory of it had been expunged

                                                            from the common brain.

Everybody wants to try one of those new pancake clocks.   

A boyfriend in the next town had one

but conveniently forgot to bring it over each time we invited him.   

Finally the rumors grew more fabulous than the real thing:   

I hear they are encrusted with tangles of briar rose,

                                                                                 so dense

not even a prince seeking the Sleeping Beauty could get inside.   

What’s more, there are more of them than when they were extinct,

yet the prices keep on rising. They have them in the Hesperides   

and in shantytowns on the edge of the known world,   

blue with cold. All downtowns used to feature them.

                                                                              Camera obscuras,

too, were big that year. But why is it that with so many people

who want to know what a shout is about, nobody can find the original recipe?

All too soon, no one cares. We go back to doing little things for each other,

pasting stamps together to form a tiny train track, and other,

less noticeable things. And the past is forgotten till next time.

How to describe the years? Some were like blocks of the palest halvah,

careless of being touched. Some took each others’ trash out,   

put each other’s eyes out. So many got thrown out

before anyone noticed, that it was like a chiaroscuro

                                                                                 of collapsing clouds.

How I longed to visit you again in that old house! But you were deaf,   

or dead. Our letters crossed. A motorboat was ferrying me out past   

the reef, people on shore looked like dolls fingering stuffs.

                                                                                             More

keeps coming out, about the dogs I mean. Surely a simple embrace

from an itinerant fish would have been spurned at certain periods. Not now.

There is a famine of years in the land, the women are beautiful,   

but prematurely old and worn. It doesn’t get better. Rocks half-buried   

in bands of sand, and spontaneous execrations.

                                                                      I yell to the ship’s front door,

wanting to be taller, and somewhere in the middle all this gets lost.   

I was a phantom for a day. My friends carried me around with them.

It always turns out that much is salvageable.

                                                                     Chicken coops

haven’t floated away on the flood. Lacemakers are back in business   

with a vengeance. All the locksmiths had left town during the night.   

It happened to be a beautiful time of season, spring or fall,   

the air was digestible, the fish tied in love-knots

on their gurneys. Yes, and journeys

were palpable too: Someone had spoken of saving appearances   

and the walls were just a little too blue in mid-morning.   

Was there ever such a time? I’d like to handle you,

bruise you with kisses for it, yet something always stops me short:   

the knowledge that this isn‘t history,

                                                          no matter how many

times we keep mistaking it for the present, that headlines

trumpet each day. But behind the unsightly school building, now a pickle

warehouse, the true nature of things is known, is not overrided:   

Yours is a vote like any other. And there is fraud at the ballot boxes,

stuffed with lace valentines and fortunes from automatic scales,   

dispensed with a lofty kind of charity, as though this could matter   

to us, these tunes

                            carried by the wind

from a barrel organ several leagues away. No, this is not the time   

to reveal your deception to us. Wait till rain and old age   

have softened us up a little more.

                                                    Then we’ll see how extinct

the various races have become, how the years stand up   

to their descriptions, no matter how misleading,

and how long the disbanded armies stay around. I must congratulate you   

on your detective work, for I am a connoisseur

of close embroidery, though I don’t have a diploma to show for it.

The trees, the barren trees, have been described more than once.   

Always they are taller, it seems, and the river passes them   

without noticing. We, too, are taller,

our ceilings higher, our walls more tinctured

with telling frescoes, our dooryards both airier and vaguer,

according as time passes and weaves its minute deceptions in and out,   

a secret thread.

Peace is a full stop.

And though we had some chance of slipping past the blockade,   

now only time will consent to have anything to do with us,   

for what purposes we do not know.