Monday, June 17, 2024

Why Are We Forever Afraid of Bathtubs, of Water Hitting Us in the Face Like the Invisible Stoning of an Anonymous Crowd

Had a wonderful long drive with my daughter day before yesterday, of all the people I know in real life no one understands and shares and exceeds at times my clusterfuckangstandanger more than my daughter (and son-in-law: it's them who will endure and maybe survive the coming decades, not me), but I'm like

and she, who does not digitally baste in the clusterfuck like I do, is like

They are now glued back-to-back. Failed another novel, a reread of Vollmann's *Royal Family,* I'd like to blame my eyes and my age but my attention span in the clusterfuckocene more to blame than both combined (I also abandoned McCarthy's *Child of God* halfway through but McCarthy shares half the blame, the book, after reading the Border Trilogy and *Blood Meridian* years ago and especially after reading *Suttree* and *The Passenger* within the last year and a half, sucks). I can't try to quit the noise until I want to quit the noise and I'm nowhere near that but at least the thought has now crossed, if not lodged, in my mind

So, gridofangers for the foreseeable future. Starting a two week hexjeff hiatus I imposed on myself last week and plan to end tonight. Weeded the blogrolls - anyone who hasn't posted in three months shifted to one of the Moribund purgatories - W in Phoenix, Z in Milwaukee, this means you - so if any resurrect I'll see it. If there's anyone you're reading who you think I might like please send me the link (or the name of a novel, please, I need to fail a new one). When the bell rings at the circ desk I now count to ten before encountering the patron, imagine myself Fleabus drinking from instead of screaming at the bathtub faucet

Our shitlords will destroy the world before they give up their power
"NATO in talks to put nuclear weapons on standby"
"The New York Times owns a building in Jerusalem stolen from a Palestinian family during the Nakba"
"This focus on the speech used tο support Palestinian rights does more than obscure the context in which protesters are speaking; it also obscures the reality about which they speak. I believe in the power and importance of language. But what is happening is not primarily about language. Words are not weapons of mass destruction: when we encourage others to use language with care, we should be sure to do the same ourselves. Some metaphors are inappropriate in some contexts. The context here is a quantity of ammunition dropped on Gaza that is equivalent to more than three times that of the atom bomb dropped on Hiroshima. A high proportion of those bombs were US-made and supplied. Those bombs were not made of language, and they certainly were not metaphors"
"You're either living in the old world with Biden, Trump, Clinton, Pelosi, McConnell, Schumer, Jeffries, etc. who've all been bribed to provide legitimacy to Zionist lies, OR you're in the new world where we ignore ruling class attempts to manipulate us and we say "Free Palestine"
Enormous Shifts in Consciousness
"I’mma tell my grandchildren I watched a genocide for 9 months in real time, documented by the psychopaths themselves"
Israel's suicideSociopath mocks his victims
"The three devils - American Imperialism, Soviet Social Imperialism, Jewish Zionism" (watch Blinken's face)
House Republican Claims Every GOP Colleague Has an ‘AIPAC Babysitter’ Pressuring Them to Cast Pro-Israel Votes
Biden: it's not genocide/Zionists: fuck yeah it's genocide
"It sure is a crazy coincidence how western politicians and media always start urgently telling us about an invisible epidemic of left wing antisemitism every time western military ties to Israel are subjected to widespread public scrutiny"
Citibank Finances the Colonization of Palestine
"Further proof that this war has become an annuity for corrupt contractors"
Columbian president: What we found at ‘peace conference’ in Switzerland is that basically it’s an alignment on the side of war
One of the evilest motherfuckers of my lifetime
"If kids got raped by clowns as often as they get raped by preachers it would be against the law to take your kids to the circus"
Some Links And An Open Thread 2024-146
Maryland governor to pardon 175,000 marijuana convictions in sweeping order
Maggie's weeklyUnknown Language Number Nineteen
Downstream effects: The cautionary tale of the Mississippi River
He is the Most Dangerous Artifact in Human History
Liquified natural gasback fundi
I Swear It Wasn't Murder, It Was Involuntary Bug Slaughter Until I Mercy Annihilated the Bug
{ feuilleton }'sA (not mine) bleggalgaze
My favorite song of the excellent new Kim Gordon album and a potential theme song for me to number and then forget the number


Rebecca Seiferle

What did we suffer for? why did we flee
our houses as if we had been hostages at our own
tables? Even free, we were not free, we kept
breaking down in thrift stores, our eyes
tearing in bins of glasses taken from the faces
of the dead; disoriented and dizzy as crows
swarming the corpses of our own hearts,
in the aisles of the department stores
filled with the glitter of plenty, we kept
spilling coffee on ourselves. Why
are we forever afraid of bathtubs, of water
hitting us in the face like the invisible
stoning of an anonymous crowd, why does buying
makeup make us feel guilty, why do we
eat our food like thieves? Why do we
sneak our friends in the back door
and make our love climb up a tree? Why
do our lies nest within one another like
diminishing dolls? Why do we jump
when the smallest child pushes open a door?
Why are we afraid of the whistling of teapots?
Who’s coming in to read over our shoulders
our most secret thoughts, who’s clinging
to our roofs like a demon? Why is his cheerfulness
even more frightening than his anger? Why does my hope
burn like the scar of a burn on my breast? Why are you
an eye floating in a pool of dead water, blue; and unable
to breathe? Why do we keep asking why?
How do we know how to stop it if we don’t know
why it began? How can we unravel so much
violence followed by so much lie? How will we know
when it’s ever over? or believe
it will ever stop?

Wednesday, June 12, 2024

The Ideas Are Still the Same, and They Expand to Fill Vast Antique Cubes

Crocus Behemoth's birthday is the day after tomorrow, Friday the 14th, he'll be seventy, today is Danny Husk's 65th birthday

Now NOT an ongoinggag, or at least now now-and-then and NOT an obsessive always as once, Pere Ubu, Two Pale Boys, and all David Thomas projects were and are one of two permanent members of My Silly-Ass Deserted Island Five Game for music, and if I don't deliberately play Pere Ubu now (as I don't Kate Bush, the other of two) it's not divorce but not needing to play, not boredom with the music, I can play any song I want in my head when I want to hear one, and ones begin playing in my head without my putting quarters in my mind's jukebox. But choose an album and put it on and listen end-to-end, no, no no no

This is true also of some of the innermost circle of musicians and bands that shuffle in and out of the three rotating seats in MSADI5G - I don't need to play Lindsay Buckingham or Grateful Dead or George Harrison or Roxy Music or the first five Peter Gabriel solo albums or New Order or The Fall or Swans or PJ Harvey or This Heat or Morton Feldman or Shostakovich or Richard Thompson or XTC of any of the dozens I'm forgetting, and I'm getting close to never needing to play Destroyer and Lambchop, at least the older albums, ever again. I have no idea who the three members of the rotating seats are now and have no interest in thinking about it and less than zero interest in naming the current three

Was at that show in Harrisburg. I hadn't planned on making a standalone birthday post of Thomas on Friday - that's another ongoinggag, the birthday standalones, I've ceased honoring the obligatory - though if there IS a post on Friday I'll play more Pere Ubu or a Two Pale Boys song, but I doubt there will be a post since my daughter will be in town and I'm spending time with her tomorrow through Saturday, I'm almost 65 myself, am I finally weening myself from the ongoinggag that is this shitty blog (while insisting still that every post IS a poem)? I tell myself I'd like to kill the clusterfucklust that relentlessly drives my mind and imagine a year of me and mine homesteading digitalessly and know I'd last a week. Bleggalgazing remains an ongoinggag and the reason this shitty blog won't shut the fuck up. Scott Thompson has one of five permanent seats in My Sillyass Deserted Island Five Game for favorite Kids in the Hall members, and Buddy Cole is 65 today

"Obscure Jewish heretic whose execution by occupying empire creates new religion that spends 1500 years killing Jews then helps them found nation state in order to hasten their conversion to new religion thanked by Jewish citizen of nation state for backing their own occupation"
Biden Admin Endorses Trump’s Saudi Foreign Policy
When I yodel about how hinky the Gazan War is a key component is (a) how much the Saudis are driving the bus and (b) how in a world of shitlord blabbermouths the uniformity of silence about the Saudi role is hinky as fuck
"The collapse of a global hegemon is always an extremely dangerous time"
Israel and the Misjudgement of Reality
"Every Democrat taking AIPAC donations is a right-wing sociopath disrupting US democracy"
Democrats when Trump is doing something bad VS Democrats when Biden is doing the same thing
"It reveals something deeply disturbing about our Christianity when we demand the government enforce the most literal and harsh interpretations of the few Bible verses about human sexuality, yet oppose the government carrying out any of the +3,000 verses about caring for the poor"
Read the comments and see how many are angry and genuinely resent caring for the poor of a different hue than themselves
"No longer trying to ‘avoid World War III,’ Biden floats nuclear arms race"
Counterpoint: Hillary Clinton FULLY grasps the moral power of this turning tide
"Blinken Going Around Saying Bibi Invented This Ceasefire Proposal While Bibi Says He Would Never Accept It Is Some Serious Weird Shit"
ISRAEL'S DESCENTEuphemizing Genocide
"When Israel Burned Refugees Alive, Establishment Media Called It a ‘Tragic Accident’"
Anyone even slightly surprised by this is complicit in the crimes
"The FBI will bring felony charges against a doctor accused of leaking the private health data of transgender youth to Chris Rufo. Dr. Eithan Haim has admitted to leaking partially redacted medical records he accessed while working as a resident at Texas Children’s Hospital"
On professional wrestling and American politics
Reason infinity times twenty to hate CVS and reminder to NEVER shop there
Maggie'sweeklyThe US numbered highway system in numerical order
African elephants address one another with individually specific name-like calls
Mixing (or ignoring) metaphors{ feuilleton }'s
The history of Maryland's lost city
Yes, Ashbery is one of two or three permanent members of my poets' MSADI5G and I *am* still constantly and compulsively and happily rereading them poems over-and-over (even if I haven't yet got my "It hurts this wanting to give a dimension to life when life is precisely that dimension tattoo")
Remembering Françoise Hardy
Actually, I can name one of the current three rotating members of MSADI5G and I do play his albums end-to-end often:


John Ashbery

It is true that I can no longer remember very well
the time when we first began to know each other.
However, I do remember very well
the time we first met. You walked in sunlight,
holding a daisy. You said, "Children make unreliable witnesses."

Now, so long after that time,
I keep the spirit of it throbbing still.
The ideas are still the same, and they expand
to fill vast, antique cubes

My daughter was reading one just the other day.
She said, "How like the pellucid statues, Daddy. Or like a...
an engine"

In this house of blues the cold creeps stealthily upon us.
I do not do what I fantasize doing.
With time the blue congeals into roomlike purple
that takes the shape of alcoves, landings...
Everything is like something else.
I should have waited before I learned this.

Friday, June 7, 2024

When Events Are Not As Random As They Seem

If our ruling class did not want Donald Biden versus Joe Trump there would be a third alternative and there will never be a third alternative and in fact there is no second. Our shitlords will burn down the world to maintain their power even more urgently than they'll burn down the world to turn a profit and they can't burn the world down for profit if the burning down the world to save power fails first, hence crackerization in service of your obedience before immiseration. Duh. Rest of duh in gridofanger, an ongoinggag, as is the below, table salt, clear elmer's glue, watercolor ink, acrylic ink, gouache, no canvas but the salt

Shitlords drumming the duh into our heads repeatedly and relentlessly a vital part of our training and obedience, fine metaphors abound, another ongoinggag, I'm embracing if not celebrating the side-effects of my spot on the spectrum. 

Our vet of twenty-five years sold his practice but still comes in twice a week and saw Rosie this past Wednesday and unlike the guy he sold the practice to who saw Rosie two weeks earlier and was too rosy in prognosis our old vet, after looking at Rosie's bloodwork, and despite my insistence that Rosie much better than two weeks before, said, As long as she is living keep her alive, when she soon is just existing it's time, good advice for all of us, yes? Hey the original dBs line-up reuniting for a tour, play DC mid-September, who's not going with me?

"(Shitlords) need you to be crazy, so they drive you crazy. If they can’t make you crazy, they try to convince you that you’re crazy. If they can’t convince you that you’re crazy, they try to convince everyone else that you’re crazy"
The Burning of Rafah’s Tent People
"The New York Times reports Israeli military is torturing people by impaling them with hot metal rods in their rectums and tying them to electric chairs. This information is buried at the end of a single article where these details are unmentioned in the headline or subheadline"
"When the @nytimes has zero credible evidence of Hamas using rape as a weapon of war, it is front page, headline news. When the @nytimes has dozens of verified reports of the IDF systematically raping and torturing Palestinians to death, it is buried at the end of the article."
"John Kirby is gonna come out and say something like "hey listen, our guys sodomized Arabs too"
Morons say it started on October 7th
If you're Palestinian, it is illegal to be attacked by zealot Zionist settlers
The Most Moral Army in the World™
The Financial Destruction of Palestine
"Literally one day after the Maldives announces a travel ban for Israelis, the attack articles appear"
Fascism be here! says US Secret Service Director!
For 35+ years my wife spent over $2K a year out of her own pocket for art supplies for her public elementary school students
Today in Dire & Necessary Duh:"There's no doubt that Trump is an evil bastard and we can judge that book by its cover. Biden on the other hand is the sneakiest evil bastard in American history. He uses Trump like a gun to our heads to move the US further right and Democrats are terrified of criticizing him"
Copyright is for shitlords, not you, peasant
I am telling you three times, you could have saved 5 million dollars in your IRA, you will be living in a refrigerator box and eating catfood in ten years if you are permitted to live/survive that long
"Twitter is owned by a fascist, the publisher of the New York Times is openly anti-Biden, CNN is doing Trump town halls, and the Washington Post and Wall Street Journal are run by Murdoch cronies. Here’s why liberal media bias is a problem"
Is Biden Self-Destructing?No, he's just following orders
"It's like Pelosi and Biden backing a staunch anti-abortion candidate in a (rare) safe seat in Texas over a woman with excellent progressive and feminist credentials. They got their man elected; now he's under indictment for money laundering and bribery. Centrists are so wise"
Dogmatic Neoliberal Democrats
The Age of the Drone Police Is Here
Better watch what you say and to whom
Spreadsheet Assassins"Samuel Alito lied in his letter to me, the chairman of the Senate Judiciary Committee. He had better prepare for a non-binding statement of disapproval like no other. by Sen. Dick Durbin (D-IL)"
The Washington Post is about to embrace the darkness
Surveillance pricingCorvids Against Zionism!
Why put up with the grief that writing a blog guarantees I’ll get?
Disclaimer: I get no grief for this shitty blog
There is no grievance pissy crackers won't embrace
On getting oldAnd who is crying
Dogwood Drive in Gaithersburg is a third of a mile from the house I grew up in and where my father and brother still live
Dan reviews four new works of fiction


Fanny Howe

I saw the shrouds of prisoners
like baptismal gowns
buried outside the cemetery.

On the canvas frills exhaled
singed wool and cardboard.

The angels arrived as lace.

Took notes, then stuck. Awful residue
from a small cut.


The veil has been ripped from the skin
where it was burned in.

The skin is the veil, the baby-material,
imprinted on, as if
one dropped the handkerchief
and it was one’s wrist.

The cuff is frightening.  
Stuffed onto oil.
Water-stains might fence its ghost in.


“The barbed wire complex”
I understand.  
Winged and flattened
at the same time, poor things!

Some leftover specters of blood.

Remember Blake’s figures like columns
with heads

looking around for God?
When events are not as random
as they seem.


The article of clothing
is only half there, it’s not full,
but when it falls forward, it is.

Terrible emptiness of the spread
neckline and little sleeve.
Half-cooked squares.

Was this religious fire
and is this where it passed?

Maybe they are floating on water
of paint, pool-sized,
blue and ridged like foam.

You would have to fly
to see them flat as a map.

The rib and hem. Rained on
for eons. Noah’s children’s
floating forms.


Angels die?
It’s a frightening-miracle
because here they are.
The Upper God

has let them drop
like centuries into space.

And I recognize them!