Have you seen all the big wigs on campus today, asked K at Thursday Night Pints. It's graduation week at Hilltop. I said, I could have run down D.E. Jionne on 37th an hour ago. Have you heard, started L, then long loud laughing discussion of the dispute between the Catholic Church and Hilltop over Sathleen Kibelius giving a commencement speech this weekend. D wanted to look at my iPhone, his 2001 Fisher Price phone is dying, can I send something on your twitter he said, sure, I said, a friend sent me an email as D was thumbing the phone, the choo-choo alert noise startled him, what the fuck! ridiculously priced and just poured scotch knocked over. Motherfucking crackers and motherfucking Obamas exchanged. Family news. Health news. Daily grind news, bad news, good news. I said, these may be the strangest days of my life but that doesn't mean they are more or less strange than any given time past or future to somebody else. D said, I just sent a tweet on your phone to [at]tomtomorrow and [hashtag]ThomasFriedmanJeopardy saying What is his ass and two hands, Alex? Why isn't it appearing at the tic-tac-toe place? I said, they're called hashtags, I don't know why, I don't understand why hashtags work sometimes, don't others. D, said L, give him his motherfucking phone and go buy a motherfucking round, and he did.
- On obamaphilia.
- Left, Wright.
- Hope and/or news round-up.
- Police state.
- Police state.
- Police state.
- Looting the lives of the poor.
- Robert Reich inches closer to his obamapostasy.
- So much for Schneiderman.
- The twilight of protest.
- Animal nature, human racism, the future of zoos.
- Most endangered river in America?
- Llama backs Chel$ki.
- Sebald, for those of you who do.
- Beckett, for those of you who do.
- The zero of the signified.
MEDITATIONS IN AN EMERGENCY
Am I to become profligate as if I were a blonde? Or religious as if I were French?
Each time my heart is broken it makes me feel more adventurous (and how the same names keep recurring on that interminable list!), but one of these days there’ll be nothing left with which to venture forth.
Why should I share you? Why don’t you get rid of someone else for a change?
I am the least difficult of men. All I want is boundless love.
Even trees understand me! Good heavens, I lie under them, too, don’t I? I’m just like a pile of leaves.
However, I have never clogged myself with the praises of pastoral life, nor with nostalgia for an innocent past of perverted acts in pastures. No. One need never leave the confines of New York to get all the greenery one wishes—I can’t even enjoy a blade of grass unless I know there’s a subway handy, or a record store or some other sign that people do not totally regret life. It is more important to affirm the least sincere; the clouds get enough attention as it is and even they continue to pass. Do they know what they’re missing? Uh huh.
My eyes are vague blue, like the sky, and change all the time; they are indiscriminate but fleeting, entirely specific and disloyal, so that no one trusts me. I am always looking away. Or again at something after it has given me up. It makes me restless and that makes me unhappy, but I cannot keep them still. If only I had grey, green, black, brown, yellow eyes; I would stay at home and do something. It’s not that I am curious. On the contrary, I am bored but it’s my duty to be attentive, I am needed by things as the sky must be above the earth. And lately, so great has their anxiety become, I can spare myself little sleep.
Now there is only one man I love to kiss when he is unshaven. Heterosexuality! you are inexorably approaching. (How discourage her?)
St. Serapion, I wrap myself in the robes of your whiteness which is like midnight in Dostoevsky. How am I to become a legend, my dear? I’ve tried love, but that hides you in the bosom of another and I am always springing forth from it like the lotus—the ecstasy of always bursting forth! (but one must not be distracted by it!) or like a hyacinth, “to keep the filth of life away,” yes, there, even in the heart, where the filth is pumped in and courses and slanders and pollutes and determines. I will my will, though I may become famous for a mysterious vacancy in that department, that greenhouse.
Destroy yourself, if you don’t know!
It is easy to be beautiful; it is difficult to appear so. I admire you, beloved, for the trap you’ve set. It's like a final chapter no one reads because the plot is over.
“Fanny Brown is run away—scampered off with a Cornet of Horse; I do love that little Minx, & hope She may be happy, tho’ She has vexed me by this Exploit a little too. —Poor silly Cecchina! or F:B: as we used to call her. —I wish She had a good Whipping and 10,000 pounds.” —Mrs. Thrale.
I’ve got to get out of here. I choose a piece of shawl and my dirtiest suntans. I’ll be back, I'll re-emerge, defeated, from the valley; you don’t want me to go where you go, so I go where you don’t want me to. It’s only afternoon, there’s a lot ahead. There won’t be any mail downstairs. Turning, I spit in the lock and the knob turns.
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Fucking techtards. If you don't know what you're doing, stay off the fucking Internets. It's like fucking 8th-graders making prank calls.
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D said, I like your iPhone, but I want to check out a droid before deciding, and K spit beer through her nose. Good times!
Thanks for the Sebald, Beckett and Frippertroncs. I can't wait for the Sebald movie. I was interested in the Beckett book until I saw that it sells for 70 FUCKING POUNDS.ReplyDelete
Where Fleabus be at? Get Planet on it--STAT (Please)