- I was down in the rec room last night looking for a book. We redid the rec room after we moved in 1992 (Earthgirl pregnant with Planet). We re-tiled the floor, re-drywalled, re-painted, re-spackled the ceiling, moved chairs and sofa and TV down. First social event of new rec room - we hosted dinner then watched the 1992 Election Day results. Landru and Hamster were there, I think, and Effjay Ichaelsmay... we all cheered Bill's election as the end of the Reagan/Bush era of rightwing fuckery. So there's that regarding my inability to let the current motherfucking POTUS cycle go.
- Not that I knew there was a debate last night, or would have watched had I known.
- Call me when Hillary Clinton releases the full - and fully verified complete - texts of her promises to the Lloyd Blankfeins - and while I may not like what she says I'll at least credit her for, in this one, and probably only, case, for honest transparency.
- Here, in one sentence, my problem with Hillary Clinton: When Cooper asked how she thought the speeches would appear during a presidential campaign, Clinton suggested she hadn't thought about such implications because she wasn't sure whether she would run for president.
- Goldman Sacks Rome.
- Because it was offered.
- Your Democratic Attorney General of Maryland.
- Who is the real stasisist?
- The NFL experience - all the great ideologies packed into thirty seconds.
- White America's "broken heart."
- The new American dream (not reanimated corpse of Dusty Rhodes).
- >>>>> Blegsylvanian fine metaphors abounding....
- Globus Hystericus.
- I am a fool for pop songs. I am a FOOL for pop songs with a female vocalist.
Prurient tapirs gamboled on our lawns,
But that was quite some time ago.
Now one is accosted by asthmatic bulldogs,
Sluggish in the hedges, ruminant.
Moving through ivy in the park
Near drying waterfalls, we open every gate;
But that grave, shell-white unicorn is gone.
The path is strewn with papers to the street.
Numbers that once were various
Regarded us, were thought significant, significant
Enough to bring reporters to the scene.
But now the bell strikes one, strikes one,
Strikes one—monotonous and tired.
Or clicks like a sad valise.
2. Note to Be Left on the Table
This ghost of yours, padding about the upper halls,
Given to fright-wigs Burbage might have worn,
Moaning in doorways, jumping out at maids,
Has not convinced me even yet. Can this be you?
Your life was frightening enough, but this
Poor pallid counterpart who fuddles in its role
Is inexcusable. Go haunt the houses of the girls
You once infected, or the men who bore
Your company far oftener than I; annoy the others
For a change. Is this, my house, the medieval hell
You took to at the grave’s edge, years ago,
After a dozen other hells had burned themselves away,
Or are we purgatory here? If not,
You make it one. I give you until noon.
Ruined travelers in sad trousseaux
Roost on my doorstep, indolent and worn.
Not one of them fulfills despised Rousseau’s
Predictions. Perhaps they are waiting to be born.
If so, the spot’s been badly chosen.
This is a site for posthumous investigations,
Pillows stuffed with nettles, charnal notions:
Apoplectic executioners, bungled incisions.
Indeed, our solitary midwife fondles the hemlock.
We welcomed one poor hackneyed Christ,
Sad bastard, croaking of pestilence. The basement
Holds him now. He has not as yet arisen.
The tickets are ready; the line forms on the right.
Justice and virtue, you will find, have been amazingly preserved.
As water from a dwindling reservoir
Uncovers mossy stones, new banks of silt,
So every minute that I spend with you reveals
New flaws, new features, new intangibles.
We have been sitting here for hours—
“I spent that summer in Madrid,
The winter on the coast of France—
The Millotsons were there, and Farnsworth.
My work has perished with the rest
Of Europe, gone, all gone. We will not see the end.”
You said goodbye, and your perfume
Lingered for hours. At first it seemed
Like summer dying there, then rank and sharp.
And yet I did not air the room.
Among Victorian beadwork and the smell of plush,
The owls, stuffed and marvelously sinister,
Glare from dark corners, waiting for the night.
High up, the moose’s passive eyes explore
Candles, unlit, within cut-glass. A door
Is opened, and you enter with a look
You might have saved for Pliny or the Pope.
The furniture has shrunk now thirty years
Have passed (with talent thinning out, and words
Gone dead), and mouths of friends in photographs
Display their hopeful and outmoded smiles.
You counted on at least a sputter of nostalgia,
However fretful. That was a mistake. Even the moose
Regards you with a tired, uncomprehending stare.
Signboards commemorate their resting place.
The graveless of another century
Came and were conquered; now their bones
Are dust where idiot highways run.
Land in their eyes, unquiet ancestors
(On fences yellow signs clang in the wind)
Unstirred by suns drying the brown weeds
Above them now in parched and caking land.
But when they speak of you, they feel the need
Of voices polished and revised by history,
The martial note, words framed in capitals.
It is good to be deaf in a deafening time
With the sky gone colorless, while the dead
Thunder breaks, a cracked dish, out of the mind.
The eye no longer single: where the bowl,
Dead in the thickened darkness, swelled with light,
Transformed the images and moved the artist’s hand,
Becomes a framework for our mania.
And haunts the stairway. Friends depart,
Taking their last look from the roof,
Saying goodnight and carrying their view
Of grapes the model ate in Paris years ago.
Blue in the morning, green some afternoons;
The night, ambiguous, forgets the signature.
The dust in attics settled and his stove
Grew cold. About the model nothing much is known.
It ends the wall and complements the view
Of chimneys. And it hides a stain.
And when your beauty, washed away
In impure streams with my desire,
Is only topic for ill-mannered minds,
Gifted and glassy with exact recall,
Gossip and rancid footnotes, or remote despair,
Let ruined weather perish in the streets
And let the world’s black lying flag come down.
Only in calendars that mark no Spring
Can there be weather in the mind
That moves to you again as you are now:
Tired after love and silent in this house,
Your back turned to me, quite alone,
Standing with one hand raised to smooth your hair,
At a small window, green with rain.