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• Might not be futile weekend blogging here, my pc I think finally needs the windowsectomy and windows resurrection Dell has been telling me only fix for my inability to turn my computer off or get updates
• yesterday's huge windows update dump froze and I barely got the machine to recover after trying a hard reboot at the hour make of the blue screen telling windows preparing update DO NOT TURN OFF COMPUTER (UPDATE: not
• fixed but better, kept Dell out of it, windows guy at windows store said it's hardware not windows, worked the update dump through hardwares's bowels)
• There's a reason every post but two a year are tagged my complicity
• Meanwhile, (above piece bigger here) I'm full of things I can't talk about here but - get this - some of them are good, wonderful even
• I can say I'm leaving in moments to pick up one of the two people whose birthdays on blog are not tagged my complicity at BWI, we're Thanksgiving dinnering this weekend, so (UPDATE! I'll 
• add links as I see them and birthdays if I find them)

• So that guy, photo from last night, will be in heaven
• UPDATE! Billionaires are gross!
• Two irreconcilable realities
• Next global economic crisis
• UPDATE! Twilight at noon
• Against economics: (1) The government adopts hard-money policies as a matter of principle. (2) Disaster ensues. (3) The government quietly abandons hard-money policies. (4) The economy recovers. (5) Hard-money philosophy nonetheless becomes, or is reinforced as, simple universal common sense. 
• The engine of idiocracy
• UPDATE! Because they hate you more 
• What's the frequency, Kenneth
• UPDATE! Personalism and the Left 
• UPDATE! I don't know why my effing free blogging platform won't let me orange the above or Dan's link below
  
• If you don't want to watch of sociopath overlords react when Sanders is up by 20 on November 1 2020 you're no fun  
• UPDATE! *This* motherfucker
• Ballard, for those of you who do
• Hannah, for those of you who do
• Lydia Davis, for those of you who do (or like me, will, or at least try) 
• UPDATE! A Dance and a Rant mentions Lydia Davis, whose new book of essays has received much huzzah, I picked up a book of her short stories last night in P&P and remembered, I *have* tried Davis before and... no
• UPDATE! Dan has a new eBook compilation on radical realist fiction & regressive realist fiction, FREE PDF! go take advantage of his smarts and his generosity 
• UPDATE! Once, at seven on a Friday night, the best Thai food ever, Ruan Thai in Wheaton, would be a half hour wait for a table, last night at seven, half empty
• New Bonnie Prince Billy, for those of you who do (or like me will wait for his windows to be fixed before attempting to download
• Terry Riley, for those of you who do

THE VIRUS READER

Anne Boyer

I offered his virus to the mechanized virus reader. It had many functions, among these the one that translated “virus” into “sick room architectures.” Thus the design specs for his recovery: a 15 × 15 outdoor room with a perimeter of medium-height pines, inside of these pines a hospital bed and an eight-foot flat-screen T V.

            

“at first it appeared that she was weeping so that I might change my mind and buy the $44 shoes, but soon she was unable to stop weeping. she refused to try on other shoes in other stores even though the shoes she wore were too small and had recently been in a mud puddle. she could see how even not-the-best-shoes-ever not-the-shoes-that-looked-like-art would be better than dirty ill-fitting shoes, but she could not stop weeping. we walked through stores while she wept. we sat in the middle of the mall while she wept. we went to a discount store, and I told her I would just pick out shoes for her because she wept too much to try on shoes. she wept in the discount store. she wasn’t weeping by design. she couldn’t stop weeping, then she stopped weeping a little and we found some brown sneakers for $44 on clearance.  in the car I wanted to weep, too, but she said to me ‘I am still a child and am learning to control my impulses and emotions. you have had many years of dreams and realities to learn from so there is no excuse for you to cry.’ she paused. ‘do you have enough dreams?’ she finally asked.”