It Is Undone Business I Speak Of, This Morning

• Some post-giftmas post past I wrote about sitting on sofa drinking coffee thinking I need to shave but not moving to get up and shave, redux 2019
• Log, Rachel Carson Trail, yesterday, all I want to do is hike with Earthgirl

• I am not aghast, on page 10 of new black lighthouse, I do not remember the order of colors of the three previous lighthouses (I know the last was red/orange) though I did, last night, trying to fall asleep, playing one of the games I play to shut-off brain, in frightened preview at my future memory's failures via the maternal line, need to look up the name of the river through Zanesville, Ohio, Muskthis, Muskthat, google told me, on my fumbled in the dark phone, it's Muskingam
• Rest in peace David Riley:

• The giftmas eve confessions of a Villager idiot (who hasn't figured out yet his bosses know and have always known) who will choose to keep his job rather than act honorably on his epiphany
• It's not my Maryland district (I'm 8th), but I just gave money to McKayla Wilkes not only because McKayla Wilkes but also too fuck Henny Stoyer
• Republicans are pigs, crackers are pussies, Democrats are the enemy
• Crackers are pussies, and it works, feature not bug
• Republicans are pigs, crackers are pussies, Democrats are the enemy 
• Another front opened in the anti-Bernie Bernie can win campaign
• RIP William Greider
• You are literally working for Silicon Valley
• Purple Line to Tysons Corners?
• I don't begrudge the money, but we park at Falls and MacArthur and walk the trails down the five miles down and back to Great Falls
• Charles Olson born 109 years ago today

MAXIMUS, TO HIMSELF

Charles Olson

I have had to learn the simplest things

last. Which made for difficulties.

Even at sea I was slow, to get the hand out, or to cross   

a wet deck.

               The sea was not, finally, my trade.

But even my trade, at it, I stood estranged

from that which was most familiar. Was delayed,

and not content with the man’s argument

that such postponement   

is now the nature of

obedience,

               that we are all late

               in a slow time,

               that we grow up many

               And the single   

               is not easily

               known

 

It could be, though the sharpness (the achiote)   

I note in others,

makes more sense

than my own distances. The agilities

 

               they show daily

               who do the world’s   

               businesses

               And who do nature’s   

               as I have no sense   

               I have done either

 

I have made dialogues,

have discussed ancient texts,

have thrown what light I could, offered   

what pleasures

doceat allows

               

               But the known?

This, I have had to be given,

a life, love, and from one man   

the world.

               Tokens.

               But sitting here

               I look out as a wind   

               and water man, testing   

               And missing

               some proof

 

I know the quarters

of the weather, where it comes from,   

where it goes. But the stem of me,   

this I took from their welcome,

or their rejection, of me

 

               And my arrogance

               was neither diminished   

               nor increased,

               by the communication

 

 

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It is undone business

I speak of, this morning,   

with the sea

stretching out

from my feet