Tuesday, June 1, 2021

I'm So Fucked Self-Indulgent to Think You'll Like This Song


▲'s most posted video on this blog by a factor of X. ▲'s the BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing Anthem, has been since Day One, people can vouch, yesterday High BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing Day, traditionally the most annoying least read post of the year, fine metaphors abound
Chris Elliott born 61 years ago yesterday, since his last birthday I've seen him as Roland Schitt, Mutt's father
Despite the plague my year between Elliott's 60th and 61st *way* better than my year between Elliott's 59th and 60th


Last BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing day I retired the usage of "Egoslavia" and "Egoslavian" but said I'd keep the image on the blogroll but removed it a few months back
Last BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing Day I was painting self-portraits using only primary colors and still writing with fountain pens in tablets, now neither
I stopped painting when I stopped composing in tablets, and when I started writing poems again via typing I discovered - not discovered, finally acknowledged - nothing ruins the experience of accomplishment for me more than transcribing my handwriting into type which confirmed what I knew but thought a moral weakness: second drafts, even if superior to first, ruin the first, better to abandon than rewrite (I can also type faster than I can write so can keep up with my head better with my fingers tapping than a pen scritching paper so I lose less of the one draft)
Between Chris Elliott's 60th and 61st birthdays I quit tablets and ink to compose on a keyboard I've had two poems published and been asked to submit more by three places that turned the ones I sent them down (I also started trading poems with a poetry professor I know who enthusiastically liked mine but then I sent him some of Johannes Goransson's poems which he despised, I haven't heard from him since, FMA)


The grids started in December. I like them. I think they make the blog easier to read and better to look at, if you don't but are still here thank you, if you're indifferent but still here thank you, if you do and are still here thank you
As I type this sentence at 20:15 EDT May 31 2021 this blog (that is, this iteration of BLCKDGRD) has had 1998059 unique views, so thank you
If you are Kinding me but me not you please let me know, and please let me know if there's anyone in Blegsylvania, not just from our stringtown, you think I would like and benefit from reading, hearing, knowing, and not only digitally, please let me know
This Holy BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing Day I'll not pretend I want to abandon my goddamn free blogging platform and admit it won't happen because I don't want or need the disappointment of rebranding necessary to move to another platform just as shitty as this one though packaged as less of an invasive surveillance tool as this one with the end result I'm just as spied on by the same motherfuckers but read less by all of you
I continue to maintain there's a reason all but two posts a year here are tagged My Complicity and assert this is and will be this shitty blog's THEME SONG ONE! now and forever, fuck me


  1. 1. Happy Day High.
    2. Goddamn Shitlords.
    3. What is wrong with me that I actually look forward to seeing that Sparks video every year at this time.
    4. Good poems.
    5. Have been ignoring the blog but am trying to pull together the various feelings necessary. Given the State Of Things, it feels like trying to save the known universe with a spoon and a pack of Bazooka (the gum, although the other might become necessary, who the fuk knows).

    Be well.

  2. read from the blogdeck
    of raised anticipation
    happy wholly high

  3. 1/i like the grids

    2/a few days ago i watched the nova scotia covid 19 update news conference on youtube - premier iain rankin wore an 'annapolis valley' tartan pattern tie

    This tartan was designed by Gordon Hansford and is a district tartan for the Annapolis Valley in Nova Scotia. Green represents the crops and forests, grey blue is for the two rivers, blue for the mountains and red represents the blood shed by early settlers.

    The Annapolis Valley is a valley and region in the Canadian province of Nova Scotia. It is located in the western part of the Nova Scotia peninsula, formed by a trough between two parallel mountain ranges along the shore of the Bay of Fundy....The shelter provided by these two mountainous ridges has produced a "micro climate" which provides relatively mild temperatures for the region and, coupled with the fertile glacial sedimentary soils on the valley floor, the region is conducive to growing vegetable and fruit crops. Particularly famous for its apple crop, the valley hosts in excess of 1,000 farms of various types, the majority being relatively small family-owned operations.


  4. possibly of interest

    Foreign Policy, in partnership with the Doha Forum, has launched a new podcast, Global Reboot. In each episode, we look at one big global challenge in the aftermath of the COVID-19 pandemic and imagine what the world would look like if international leaders turned the crisis into an opportunity. In the first episode, FP’s editor in chief Ravi Agrawal interviews U.S. Special Presidential Envoy for Climate John Kerry about why he's optimistic for the future and what role corporations must play in the battle for the planet.


    1. i hadn't listened to it before posting this - boring, imho, although if the MICFiC thinks it's worth talking about there is at least a chance they might do a little something - it's hard to make predictions, especially about the future

      for entertainment in the here and now, instead i suggest looking at 'stairway to heaven - uncaged' - parrot with guitarist sideman