Saturday, August 2, 2025

No, It’s True, No One Should Be Writing Poetry in Times Like These, Dear Reader, I Don’t Have to Tell You of All People Why

I don't know why but four days ago my phone and the rental car's Bluetooth turned on my old apple tunes account which I couldn't get to work two or three years ago and hadn't tried since. This was the soundtrack of Maine (and Michigan) vacations with almost full catalogs of songs by Pere Ubu and Swans and Magnetic Fields and Kate Bush (I didn't forget her birthday on July 30th, I just didn't post it) and XTC and Durutti Column and Lambchop and Destroyer and Cabaret Voltaire and Wire and Stereolab and The Necks and Aphex Twin and other favorites all of who but Lambchop I've discovered I did not miss hearing as much as I thought I did and in the case of Swans and The Necks and Magnetic Fields whatever mystical hold they had on me is gone. Gone. As in gone





Long Pond Trail, Acadia National Park, Mouth Desert Island, Maine in yesterday's extraordinary light. Happened to me with authors too: Ishiguro especially, and Harington and Vollmann, and poets too, Bidart and Raworth and Rich, O'Hara especially. I mention this out of curiosity, not angst, what percentage is my natural aging and failing eyes and inevitable faltering of mind and changes in tastes versus the reprogramming of my head by the constant digital barrage my keepers aim at me that I eagerly consume, he types into his shitty blog. Diminished concentration and focus a primary goal, yo, a constant state of an uneasy and vaguely worrisome distraction a vital if not most vital goal of our daily delivered doses of shitlord reprogramming. I'm halfway through Rachel Kushner's highly recommended by friends novel *Creation Lake:" I can't half-remember what I read yesterday. I do remember I listened to this yesterday, off my bandcamp:





L is delighted I found the old sound track so we listen to that when driving to hikes since she dislikes much of what I own at Bandcamp, laugh. Music still works for me, I want it new and loud and and angry and often but not always in 4/4 and more often now with no vocals, reminding me again my sole proof for God is that I who have always adored, still adore, and pray I will always adore music, have no finger dexterity to play an instrument and own the world's single worse singing voice. I want new. I contribute nothing but distributing what I can't do

I don't want to hear Pere Ubu or Kate Bush now or ever again until rescinded before I refuse to hear them ever again. Fuck me. My Sillyass Deserted Island Five Game, already unofficially mothballed now officially mothballed. Fine metaphors abound





Then there's my clusterfuck addiction, which can be, unlike, for me, novels and poetry, read with music in my earbuds and becomes the clusterfuck's soundtrack all too often, a thing both good and bad
"it’s the fault of powerless activists horrified by human suffering, not the most powerful people in the world who knowingly enabled and abetted horrific war crimes"
"Consider how strange the "boy who cried wolf" analogy is here. It's a matter of historical record that Israel used food deprivation in Gaza long before October 7, 2023. So this is not a case of the boy falsely crying wolf and eventually a real wolf showing up. This is a case of a wolf ravaging the countryside for many years, critics calling for the wolf to be restrained as it killed more and more, and people like Yglesias acting as de facto defence attorneys decrying the wolf had been defamed, until the slaughter reached the point it could no longer be denied"
Democrat Touts Opposition to Starvation in Gaza — But Blames US Protesters
"No, Piers. It was a genocide in Gaza from day one. Here’s why"
"Israeli soldiers avoided interrupting Witkoff’s propaganda tour by using silencers for today’s killings"
How much is shoddy, pro-Israel journalism worth? Ask Bari Weiss
On Islamophobia, Demographics, and Radical Politics
"Her performed indifference to the enigma she presents is her defining feature as a public persona. Spectacle, for Melania Trump, is a dish best served cold"
You can't fight enshittification
"The US right is now divided into two factions: the moderates, who believe the New Deal was a horrible mistake, and the conservatives, who believe the Enlightenment was a horrible mistake. Trump's attack on the Bureau of Labor Statistics shows the conservatives are winning"
The Media Can’t Handle the Absence of Truth
How to Hold a Sham Public Hearing
"It's been 16 years since the federal minimum wage was raised. The bipartisan consensus is functioning perfectly" for those who matter"
Two-party duplicityNo justice, no shade
Avedon Carol's occasional links
ROCKETS TO THE PSEUDOCOSM
DREAMWEAPONgardenstory#1431
On William Gaddis' *A Frolic of His Own*






HAZARD RESPONSE

Tom Clark

As in that grey exurban wasteland in Gatsby
When the white sky darkens over the city
Of ashes, far from the once happy valley,
This daze spreads across the blank faces
Of the inhabitants, suddenly deprived
Of the kingdom’s original promised gift.
Did I say kingdom when I meant place
Of worship? Original when I meant
Damaged in handling? Promised when
I meant stolen? Gift when I meant
Trick? Inhabitants when I meant slaves?
Slaves when I meant clowns
Who have wandered into test sites? Test
Sites when I meant contagious hospitals?
Contagious hospitals when I meant clouds
Of laughing gas? Laughing gas
When I meant tears? No, it’s true,
No one should be writing poetry
In times like these, Dear Reader,
I don’t have to tell you of all people why.
It’s as apparent as an attempted
Punch in the eye that actually
Catches only empty air—which is
The inside of your head, where
The green ritual sanction
Of the poem has been cancelled.

Friday, August 1, 2025

quarrelsomely carving away under the table at the dead meat



Born 206 years ago today.

From Moby Dick:
Is it that by its indefiniteness it shadows forth the heartless voids and immensities of the universe, and thus stabs us from behind with the thought of annihilation, when beholding the white depths of the milky way? Or is it, that as in essence whiteness is not so much a color as the visible absence of color; and at the same time the concrete of all colors; is it for these reasons that there is such a dumb blankness, full of meaning, in a wide landscape of snows- a colorless, all-color of atheism from which we shrink? And when we consider that other theory of the natural philosophers, that all other earthly hues- every stately or lovely emblazoning- the sweet tinges of sunset skies and woods; yea, and the gilded velvets of butterflies, and the butterfly cheeks of young girls; all these are but subtle deceits, not actually inherent in substances, but only laid on from without; so that all deified Nature absolutely paints like the harlot, whose allurements cover nothing but the charnel-house within; and when we proceed further, and consider that the mystical cosmetic which produces every one of her hues, the great principle of light, for ever remains white or colorless in itself, and if operating without medium upon matter, would touch all objects, even tulips and roses, with its own blank tinge- pondering all this, the palsied universe lies before us a leper; and like wilful travellers in Lapland, who refuse to wear colored and coloring glasses upon their eyes, so the wretched infidel gazes himself blind at the monumental white shroud that wraps all the prospect around him. And of all these things the Albino whale was the symbol. Wonder ye then at the fiery hunt?

(Added 2015: read that outloud. I dare you. I double-dog dare you.)





Via Brad:
"Poor Hoffman — I remember the shock I had when I first saw the mention of his madness. — But he was just the man to go mad — imaginative, voluptuously inclined, poor, unemployed, in the race of life distanced by his inferiors, unmarried, — without a port of haven in the universe to make. . . . This going mad of a friend or acquaintance comes straight home to every man who feels his soul in him, — which but few men do.  For in all of us lodges the same fuel to light the same fire.  And he who has never felt, momentarily, what madness is has but a mouthful of brains." (Correspondence)



"[I]t is often to be observed, that as in digging for precious metals in the mines, much earthy rubbish has first to be troublesomely handled and thrown out; so, in digging in one's soul for the fine gold of genius, much dullness and common-place is first brought to light.  Happy would it be, if the man possessed in himself some receptacle for his own rubbish of this sort: but . . . [n]o common-place is ever effectually got rid of, except by essentially emptying one's self of it into a book; for once trapped in a book, then the book can be put into the fire, and all will be well." (Pierre)




"I forgot to mention, that last night about 9 1/2 P.M. Adler & Taylor came into my room, & it was proposed to have whiskey punches, which we did have, accordingly.  Adler drank about three table spoons full — Taylor 4 or five tumblers &c.  We had an extraordinary time & did not break up till after two in the morning.  We talked metaphysics continually, & Hegel, Schlegel, Kant &c. were discussed under the influence of the whiskey." (Correspondence)




"We incline to think that God cannot explain His own secrets, and that He would like a little information upon certain points Himself. We mortals astonish Him as much as He us. But it is this Being of the matter; there lies the knot with which we choke ourselves. As soon as you say Me, a God, a Nature, so soon you jump off from your stool and hang from the beam. Yes, that word is the hangman. Take God out of the dictionary, and you would have Him in the street." (Correspondence)




""Dolt & ass that I am I have lived more than 29 years, & until a few days ago, never made close acquaintance with the divine William [Shakespeare]." (Correspondence)






From: The Confidence-Man: His Masquerade
"I am pleased to believe that beauty is at bottom incompatible with ill, and therefore am so eccentric as to have confidence in the latent benignity of that beautiful creature, the rattle-snake, whose lithe neck and burnished maze of tawny gold, as he sleekly curls aloft in the sun, who on the prairie can behold without wonder?" As he breathed these words, he seemed so to enter into their spirit — as some earnest descriptive speakers will — as unconsciously to wreathe his form and sidelong crest his head, till he all but seemed the creature described. Meantime, the stranger regarded him with little surprise, apparently, though with much contemplativeness of a mystical sort, and presently said: "When charmed by the beauty of that viper, did it never occur to you to change personalities with him? to feel what it was to be a snake? to glide unsuspected in grass? to sting, to kill at a touch; your whole beautiful body one iridescent scabbard of death? In short, did the wish never occur to you to feel yourself exempt from knowledge, and conscience, and revel for a while in the care-free, joyous life of a perfectly instinctive, unscrupulous, and irresponsible creature?





Via Ed (lots of Melville there):
But not yet have we solved the incantation of this whiteness, and learned why it appeals with such power to the soul; and more strange and far more portentous—why, as we have seen, it is at once the most meaning symbol of spiritual things, nay, the very veil of the Christian’s Deity; and yet should be as it is, the intensifying agent in things the most appalling to mankind.
(from Moby Dick).





Via Flowerville, from Pierre, or The Ambiguities.
From these random slips, it would seem, that Pierre is quite conscious of much that is so anomalously hard and bitter in his lot, of much that is so black and terrific in his soul. Yet that knowing his fatal condition does not one whit enable him to change or better his condition. Conclusive proof that he has on power over his condition. For in tremendous extremities human souls are like drowning men; well enough they know they are in peril; well enough they know the causes of that peril; -- nevertheless, the sea is the sea, and these drowning men do drown.




ibid:
But is life, indeed, a thing for all infidel levities, and we, its misdeemed beneficiaries, so utterly fools and infatuate, that what we take to be our strongest tower of delight, only stands at the caprice of the minutest event—the falling of a leaf, the hearing of a voice, or the receipt of one little bit of paper scratched over with a few small characters by a sharpened feather? Are we so entirely insecure, that that casket, wherein we have placed our holiest and most final joy, and which we have secured by a lock of infinite deftness; can that casket be picked and desecrated at the merest stranger's touch, when we think that we alone hold the only and chosen key? 




                         
From Moby Dick:
Though amid all the smoking horror and diabolism of a sea-fight, sharks will be seen longingly gazing up to the ship's decks, like hungry dogs round a table where red meat is being carved, ready to bolt down every killed man that is tossed to them; and though, while the valiant butchers over the deck-table are thus cannibally carving each other's live meat with carving-knives all gilded and tassled, the sharks, also, with the jewel-hilted mouths, are quarrelsomely carving away under the table at the dead meat; and though, were you to turn the whole affair upside-down, it would still be pretty much the same thing, that is to say, a shocking sharkish business enough for all parties; and though sharks also are the invariable outriders of slave ships crossing the Atlantic, systematically trotting alongside, to be handy in case a parcel is to be carried anywhere, or a dead slave to be decently buried; and though one or two other like instances might be set down, touching the set terms, places, and occasions, when sharks do socially congregate, and most hilariously feast; yet there is no conceivable time or occasion when you will find them in such countless numbers, and in gayer or more jovial spirits, than around a dead sperm whale, moored by night to a whale-ship at sea. If you have never seen that sight, then suspend your decision about the propriety of devil-worship, and the expediency of conciliating the devil.





From Moby Dick (and for Savid Dampselle and that other guy who was in Dampselle's Gaithersburg High School English class up on D-Wing above the Auto-Shop classroom/garage):

“Squeeze! Squeeze! Squeeze! all the morning long; I squeezed that sperm till I myself almost melted into it; I squeezed that sperm till a strange sort of insanity came over me, and I found myself unwittingly squeezing my co-labourers' hands in it, mistaking their hands for the gentle globules. Such an abounding, affectionate, friendly, loving feeling did this avocation beget; that at last I was continually squeezing their hands, and looking up into their eyes sentimentally, as much as to say,—Oh! my dear fellow beings, why should we longer cherish any social acerbities, or know the slightest ill humour or envy! Come; let us squeeze hands all round; nay, let us all squeeze ourselves into each other; let us squeeze ourselves universally into the very milk and sperm of kindness.”   





Oh, you read Melville's traditional High Egoslavian Holy Day post this far? Thank you!

2019: I wrote earlier this year I can't imagine reading Moby Dick again because of whaling, I can imagine reading again, maybe, but not soon.

2019: Someone else with my qualms and reason to read it again soon 

2019:


2020: Read Benito Cereno in March, and, re: Moby Dick, I am in negotiations with myself whether if I skip the slaughters is it reading the novel

2021: I read the torturing, murdering, and rendering of whales and I will never do it again

2022: Laugh, I was going to below the fold this post but my goddamn free blogging platform seems to have eliminated that option! I have very vague intentions to reread *Confidence Man* before Melville's 205th birthday

2023: Nope, didn't read, but did reread William Gass' *Omensetter's Luck* last Fall, he would have been 99 two days ago

2024: Hey, the Brad who provided content above just had his independent bookstore in Oakland destroyed by fire, please go throw the coins in your pocket and between your sofa cushions at him to help him rebuild the business (and then buy your books there). Also too, a reread of *Pierre* is being contemplated though not yet committed to.

Have I ever mentioned that I love Melville? Oh, the condensed Moby Dick? Was ELEVEN YEARS AGO'S Giftmas present from my daughter C. Have I ever told you I love my daughter?





Also too, Jerry Garcia born 83 years ago today, call out to Thudner, Thudner, you still here?


Wednesday, July 30, 2025

I built, of blocks, a town three hundred thousand strong, whose avenues were paved with a wine-colored rug and decorated by large leaves outlined inappropriately in orange, and on this leafage I'd often park my Tootsie Toy trucks, as if on pads of camouflage, waiting their deployment against catastrophes which included alien invasions, internal treachery, and world war, or: Born 101 Years Ago Today



William Gass born 101 years ago today This is the traditional William Gass birthday post:

from 
The Tunnel:


The other large carton unpacked in the same way - box into box - but the feeling it gave me was the opposite of that suggested by the endless nest of Russians dollies it otherwise resembled, for what I was opening was a den of spaces which now covered the floor near my feet. It was plain that every ten-by-ten-by eight container contained cubes which were nine by nine by seven, and eight by eight by six, and seven by seven by five, and so on down to three by three by two, as well as many smaller, thinly sided one at every interval in between, so that out of one box a million more might multiply, confirming Zeno's view, although at that age, with an unfurnished mind, I couldn't have known of his paradoxes let alone have been able to describe one with any succinctness. What I had discovered is that every space contains more space than the space it contains.

That passage reminds me what I'm trying to get at here (2020: everywhere) though of course Gass does it better (2020: considering a WIHDITESCMSTTSIC tattoo first before the IHTWTGADTLWLIPTD tattoo)

More Gass here from here










From The Tunnel, read out loud if you can, if you want:




Also too:

Excerpt from The Tunnel
William Gass

I built, of blocks, a town three hundred thousand strong, whose avenues were paved with a wine-colored rug and decorated by large leaves outlined inappropriately in orange, and on this leafage I'd often park my Tootsie Toy trucks, as if on pads of camouflage, waiting their deployment against catastrophes which included alien invasions, internal treachery, and world war. It was always my intention, and my conceit, to use up, in the town's construction, every toy I possessed: my electronic train, of course, the Lincoln Logs, old kindergarten blocks—their deeply incised letters always a problem—the Erector set, every lead soldier that would stand (broken ones were sent to the hospital), my impressive array of cars, motorcycles, tanks, and trucks—some with trailers, some transporting gas, some tows, some dumps—and my squadrons of planes, my fleet of ships, my big and little guns, an undersized group of parachute people (looking as if one should always imagine them high in the sky, hanging from threads), my silversided submarines, along with assorted RR signs, poles bearing flags, prefab houses with faces pasted in their windows, small boxes of a dozen variously useful kinds, strips of blue cloth for streams and rivers, and glass jars for town water towers, or, in a pinch, jails. In time, the armies, the citizens, even the streets would divide: loyalties, friendships, certainties, would be undermined, the city would be shaken by strife; and marbles would rain down from formerly friendly planes, steeples would topple onto cars, and shellfire would soon throw aggie holes through homes, soldiers would die accompanied by my groans, and ragged bands of refugees would flee toward mountain caves and other chairs and tables.


Tuesday, July 29, 2025

It Hurts, This Wanting to Give a Dimension to Life When Life Is Precisely That Dimension, or: Born Ninety-Eight Years Ago Yesterday

HOTEL LAUTREAMONT

John Ashbery

  1.
Research has shown that ballads were produced by all of society
working as a team. They didn’t just happen. There was no guesswork.
The people, then, knew what they wanted and how to get it.
We see the results in works as diverse as “Windsor Forest” and “The Wife of Usher’s Well.”   

Working as a team, they didn’t just happen. There was no guesswork.
The horns of elfland swing past, and in a few seconds
we see the results in works as diverse as “Windsor Forest” and “The Wife of Usher’s Well,”
or, on a more modern note, in the finale of the Sibelius violin concerto.

The horns of elfland swing past, and in a few seconds
the world, as we know it, sinks into dementia, proving narrative passé,
or in the finale of the Sibelius violin concerto.
Not to worry, many hands are making work light again.

The world, as we know it, sinks into dementia, proving narrative passé.
In any case the ruling was long overdue.
Not to worry, many hands are making work light again,
so we stay indoors. The quest was only another adventure.


   2.
In any case, the ruling was long overdue.
The people are beside themselves with rapture
so we stay indoors. The quest was only another adventure
and the solution problematic, at any rate far off in the future.

The people are beside themselves with rapture
yet no one thinks to question the source of so much collective euphoria,
and the solution: problematic, at any rate far off in the future.
The saxophone wails, the martini glass is drained.

Yet no one thinks to question the source of so much collective euphoria.
In troubled times one looked to the shaman or priest for comfort and counsel.
The saxophone wails, the martini glass is drained,
and night like black swansdown settles on the city.

In troubled times one looked to the shaman or priest for comfort and counsel.
Now, only the willing are fated to receive death as a reward,
and night like black swansdown settles on the city.
If we tried to leave, would being naked help us?


   3.
Now, only the willing are fated to receive death as a reward.
Children twist hula-hoops, imagining a door to the outside.
If we tried to leave, would being naked help us?
And what of older, lighter concerns? What of the river?

Children twist hula-hoops, imagining a door to the outside,
when all we think of is how much we can carry with us.
And what of older, lighter concerns? What of the river?
All the behemoths have filed through the maze of time.

When all we think of is how much we can carry with us
small wonder that those at home sit, nervous, by the unlit grate.
All the behemoths have filed through the maze of time.
It remains for us to come to terms with our commonality.

Small wonder that those at home sit nervous by the unlit grate.
It was their choice, after all, that spurred us to feats of the imagination.
It remains for us to come to terms with our commonality
and in so doing deprive time of further hostages.


   4.
It was their choice, after all, that spurred us to feats of the imagination.
Now, silently as one mounts a stair we emerge into the open
and in so doing deprive time of further hostages,
to end the standoff that history long ago began.

Now, silently as one mounts a stair we emerge into the open
but it is shrouded, veiled: We must have made some ghastly error.
To end the standoff that history long ago began
must we thrust ever onward, into perversity?

But it is shrouded, veiled: We must have made some ghastly error.
You mop your forehead with a rose, recommending its thorns.
Must we thrust ever onward, into perversity?
Only night knows for sure; the secret is safe with her.

You mop your forehead with a rose, recommending its thorns.
Research has shown that ballads were produced by all of society;
only night knows for sure. The secret is safe with her:
The people, then, knew what they wanted and how to get it.




The traditional BLCKDGRD Holy Day post

Ashbery born 98 years ago today, I have read - and posted - Vaucanson more than any other poem by anybody ever. The first sentence in the fourth stanza? Exactly.

I say this every year: almost 50 years ago someone gave me a copy of Ashbery's Self-Portrait in a Convex Mirror and changed my life. 


2019:  My next tattoo, again cobalt blue, that first sentence fourth stanza, facing me from inner right wrist to inner right elbow, I H T W T G A D T L W L I P T D 

2020: No tattoo yet, negotiations with Earthgirl, who said I could get another tattoo anywhere on my body normally covered by clothes but please not another on my forearm and please not on my calves, had stalled when plague hit 

2020: I can tell by how I'm writing here and in and on tablets I've been reading Ashbery, a poem a day, working my way through Notes from the Air: Selected Later Poems, more than one a day in Maine, reading the ones that talk to me, not worrying the few that don't, that is all that's to it

2020: Ashbery's birthday post never a second thought but the remainder of the run of Holy Days I had a second thought for all but Gass who I've never, this recent bloom of sudden done rampant, I can hear it and read it in my head, I don't want to hear it or read it with my ears and eyes, I started the rereading of *Notes from the Air* just to see if Ashbery too, and no 

2020: All that got a second thought (and Gass, who never) will be birthdayed with all proper copy/pasting (if not (as m)any new 2020: bullets)

2021: Read *Flow Chart* for a second time past February, I admit I started it out of duty (I'd reread everything else at least twice and in most cases more and in some cases *lots* more, and enjoyed it more than I remember the liking the first time

2021: Still no tattoo, I could blame the plague but it's me, I still love the poem, don't need the tattoo

2021: View from the deck of the house in Seal Cove Maine where I'm typing this sentence at six in the morning



2022: Still no tattoo but there are plans for a new tattoo soon, not I H T W T G A D T L W L I P T D (which still may happen) but matching tattoos w C of C's Napoleon



Also too, the plan is to be here for Ashbery's birthday for years 

(2023: though yesterday the owners told us we should rent the two weeks the first week of October *next* year and maybe, just maybe)


 
2024: We cancelled our Maine trip, needed stay in town, o well. Still no new tattoo, the sixteen letters or Napoleon. Ashbery's *Late Collected Poems,* the paperback not the hardback first edition, in backpack the past three months, one poem a day, yesterday's added at the bottom of post. 

The late July birthday bounty upon me, Ashbery, Bush, Gass, Melville, Garcia, all in four days. Was a bleggal blessing in Maine on vacation, fuck me if I know what I'm going to do with them now I'm home. Both reasons we didn't go to Maine are doing better enough

2025: Day late, if not by design also not by dereliction - out early yesterday for a long hike on Great Wass, by time I could have I decided to wait for this morning. 

Whatever few thoughts I had of the IHTWTGADTLWLIPTD tattoo now gone, nothing to do with Ashbery, from whose *Collected Early Poems, 1956-1987* I read a poem a day and whose *Some Trees* will be read front to back in Michigan this Fall, but with me: it's just a performance I don't want to enact and display on body. Lot of that going around every aspect of daily shit, starting to seep in here too, here's hoping, here's hoping not. Will this blog, will I, be here in two years for Ashbery's centenary?
  

LATE ECHO

Alone with our madness and favorite flower
We see that there really is nothing left to write about.
Or rather, it is necessary to write about the same old things
In the same way, repeating the same things over and over
For love to continue and be gradually different.
   
Beehives and ants have to be re-examined eternally
And the color of the day put in

Hundreds of times and varied from summer to winter
For it to get slowed down to the pace of an authentic
Saraband and huddle there, alive and resting.
  
Only then can the chronic inattention
Of our lives drape itself around us, conciliatory
And with one eye on those long tan plush shadows
That speak so deeply into our unprepared knowledge
Of ourselves, the talking engines of our day.


Click ASHBERY for LOTS! of his poems


VAUCANSON

John Ashbery

It was snowing as he wrote.
In the gray room he felt relaxed and singular,
But no one, of course, ever trusts these moods.

There had to be understanding to it.
Why, though? That always happens anyway,
And who gets the credit for it? Not what is understood,
Presumably, and it diminishes us
In our getting to know it.

As trees come to know a storm
Until it passes and light falls anew
Unevenly, on all the muttering kinship:
Things with things, persons with objects,
Ideas with people or ideas.

It hurts, this wanting to give a dimension
To life when life is precisely that dimension.
We are creatures, therefore we walk and talk
And people come up to us, or listen
And then move away.

Music fills the spaces
Where figures are pulled to the edges,
And it can only say something.

Sinews are loosened then,
The mind begins to think good thoughts.
Ah, this sun must be good:
Doing a number, completing its trilogy.
Life must be back there. You hid it
So no one could find it
And now you can't remember where.

But if one were to invent being a child again
It might just come close enough to being a living relic
To save this thing, save it from embarrassment
By ringing down the curtain,

And for a few seconds no one would notice.
The ending would seem perfect.
No feelings to dismay,
No tragic sleep to wake from in a fit
Of passionate guilt, only the warm sunlight
That slides easily down shoulders
To the soft, melting heart.


LIGHT TURNOUTS

Dear ghost, what shelter
in the noonday crowd? I'm going to write
an hour, then read
what someone else has written.


You're no mansion for this to happen in.
But your adventures are like safe houses
your knowing where to stop an adventure
of another order, like seizing the weather
.

We too are embroiled in this scene of happening,
and when we speak the same phrase together:
"We used to have one of those,"
it matters like a shot in the dark.

One of us stays behind.
One of us advances on the bridge
as on a carpet. Life - it's marvelous -
follows and falls behind.

Sunday, July 27, 2025

It’s Like Being Left Out in the Rain, and Coming to Understand That You Were Always This Way: Modern, Wet, Abandoned, Though with That Special Intuition That Makes You Realize You Weren’t Meant to Be Somebody Else

The big run of major birthdays the end of July celebrated here start tomorrow so quick, some observations after six days from Seal Cove, Mount Desert Island, Maine, from our cottage across a pond from Bernard Mountain, Acadia National Park (here's this morning's sunrise (5:45) from our backporch):


  • Goldenrod is in bloom and always blooms a month earlier in Maine than it does in Maryland, which never has made sense to me
  • I have not seen one car on the road or in a parking lot with a Canadian province license plate and I've made it a point of looking and asked L to let me know if she see's any and she hasn't. In past years at least twenty percent of visitors to MDI in general and Acadia National Park in particular have had plates from Ontario and New Brunswick and especially Quebec
  • The number of tourists overall is far less than in previous trips, at Acadia's most used hiking trails if you didn't grab one of the limited number of parking spots by seven in the morning you are fuck out of luck, we have yet to have an issue at any time of the day so far, and even Ellsworth, on the main land but a bottleneck everyone in and out of MDI must drive through isn't a total clusterfuck traffic-wise from sunrise to sunset, and the tourist-trap lobster pounds don't have stupid long lines of stupid people paying $24 for fifty cents worth of lobster and mayonaise
  • We did not come last year because Rosie was sick and near death (she's happy and healthy now) but a number of stores and restaurants in Ellsworth on the mainland and Bar Harbor, Southwest Harbor, and Northeast Harbor on MDI have shuttered since we were last here in 2023
  • I'd read stories of the drug abuse epidemic in Downeast Maine in general and Deer Isle in particular for years but had never seen this before: in two restaurants we've been in, one in Ellsworth and another in Stonington on Deer Isle, and in two gas station bathrooms I've been in, there are free fentanyl test kits, test your heroin before using! 


  • Very few Trump 2024 signs and flags still in yards but a surprising number of rainbow RESIST! signs in yards with no pick-up trucks in the driveway and yard
  • Maine pick-up drivers assholier than Michigan pick-up drives, and native Mainers HATE the tourists that float the local economy, I mentioned this an earlier year, a Mainer once told me a significant number of Mainers, if they see your car coming with an out-of-state license plate they pull in front then deliberately slow down for at least a mile
  • Fun being had but something (not *us*) off, (including the owners of the house we're renting who also insist something is off on the island and Downeast)



  • The grid below is proof I haven't ignored the clusterfuck but the relative lack of links and the fact that some are from earlier last week is proof my attention the clusterfuck has not been as all-consuming as normal, as is the fact that I'm halfway through James' *The Ambassadors* and Rachel Kushner's *Creation Lake* and, get this, am enjoying reading
  • I've played only two courses, the nearly Hapana and the faraway Step Back, with only four discs! Orc, Archangel, Roc, and Alpaca, and playing well, paired up with locals at both, they confirmed the economy sucks here, tourism is way down, drug-abuse is way up, and despair is rampant
  • Whatever concessions shitlords wanted from Dump as they reminded him who's boss must have been received, they've backed-off shivving him with Epstein for now
  • I've made an effort to reestablish my unconditional love for Destroyer's music with only partial success, though Gastr del Sol getting a LOT of airtime!




Ethnic Cleansing in the United States
"It’s A Genocide, But It’s Also So Much More Than That"
"Watching Western leaders tweet about the ‘conditions in Gaza’ while still arming Israel and refusing to use all the power to stop them, as is their duty under the Genocide Convention, is like Hitler tweeting “Conditions in Auschwitz are really bad” while ordering more Zyklon B"
Are we taking this fascism thing seriously?
"The Serious Starvation Deaths Are About To Begin In Gaza"
"All the worst people rushing at once to create an alibi, really bad sign of what's around the corner"
"People who demanded accountability in 2024 from Dem leaders who initiated and perpetuated this genocide were called traitors and Trump supporters, and continue to be called that to this day"
Democrats’ 2024 Autopsy Is Described as Avoiding the Likeliest Cause of Death
"He's gonna pardon Ghislaine, she's gonna say here is the list with trump and Rs conspicuously missing. That is gonna be enough cover for the GOP electeds and MAGA, and then Bondi & Co will start prosecuting the names on the list and Trump's involvement will be a distant memory"
"Just to be clear: The Trump administration had offered limited immunity to a convicted sex trafficker who also—and this is important—participated in the abuse herself, including of minors—and who may be offered a pardon so as to (attempt to) inoculate Trump himself"
We have more to fear from stupid people than evil ones
Is Bezos killing the newspaper on purpose or by accident?
How AI laws are reviving the worst ideas of campus censorship
How big tech is force-feeding us AI
The 2026 World Cup Could Be the Most Corrupt Ever
ECONOMIC TERROR AND THE TURBOCHUGGF*CK IN TEXAS
What Trump was trying to demonstrate in Los Angeles is that he can project his armed power into every American community at any time
I. HATE. MOTHERFUCKING. DEMOCRATS.
I. HATE. MOTHERFUCKING. DEMOCRATS.
I. HATE. MOTHERFUCKING. DEMOCRATS.
1st, kill the newsThe Race Is Not To The Swift
Supreme Court conservatives hide behind their own masks as they upend the law
"Hulk Hogan died. He devoted his life to being a scumbag, including preventing unionizing in wrestling by snitching on Jesse Ventura to Vince McMahon when he tried to get a union started. When Ventura sued and found out it was Hogan who ratted him out, he never talked to him again"
"Hogan is a textbook example of American mediocrity. Despite being a racist, sycophantic, backstabbing grifter, almost every match he's ever had was a flat one-star snoozefest. He was so wack between the ropes that his finisher was a leg drop. A fucking leg drop. Hogan was positively identified for ratting out the locker room to the bosses when wrestlers tried to unionize. He engaged in aggressive backstage politics to suppress talent and protect his position. Hogan refused to put wrestlers over even though they out-worked and out-performed him every night. He never wanted to make anyone else look good and he always wanted a lion's share of the pay. He had one of the most inflated and most undeserved egos in entertainment, and all his movies sucked. Hogan relied on the same schtick for decades and failed to adapt to a changing audience before becoming a MAGA influencer in his final days"
Don't Let Big Cannabis Smoke Out Small Businesses
Remember you must die"This AI bubble propping up US financial markets looks nothing at all like a ponzi scheme"
All this to produce a purely phantasmic, fetishistic form of “wealth.”
Dappled thingsRethinking collapse{ feuilleton }
The breakthrough proof bringing mathematics closer to a grand unified theory
conatus - long calm patient difficulty
I'm eagerly anxiously curious how I read and overreact to *Shadow Ticket,* I of course want to love it (has anyone else noticed the timing the first week of October, what major lit prize is awarded the first week of October?) I of course can't trust me if I love it or hate it
Joshua Cohen interviews Vladimir Sorokin
From 50 years ago, live Richard and Linda Thompson
We are only two years tomorrow from the centennial of the poet below, I may have posted him here before






COMMOTION OF THE BIRDS

John Ashbery

We’re moving right along through the seventeenth century.
 
The latter part is fine, much more modern
 
than the earlier part.  Now we have Restoration Comedy.
Webster and Shakespeare and Corneille were fine 
for their time but not modern enough,
 
though an improvement over the sixteenth century
 
of Henry VIII, Lassus and Petrus Christus, who, paradoxically,
 
seem more modern than their immediate successors,
 
Tyndale, Moroni, and Luca Marenzio among them.
 
Often it’s a question of seeming rather than being modern.
 
Seeming is almost as good as being, sometimes,
 
and occasionally just as good.  Whether it can ever be better
 
is a question best left to philosophers
 
and others of their ilk, who know things 
in a way others cannot, even though the things 
are often almost the same as the things we know.
 
We know, for instance, how Carissimi influenced Charpentier,
 
measured propositions with a loop at the end of them
 
that brings things back to the beginning, only a little
 
higher up.  The loop is Italian,
 
imported to the court of France and first despised,
 
then accepted without any acknowledgment of where
 
it came from, as the French are wont to do. 
It may be that some recognize it 
in its new guise—that can be put off
 
till another century, when historians
 
will claim it all happened normally, as a result of history.
 
(The baroque has a way of tumbling out at us
 
when we thought it had been safely stowed away.
 
The classical ignores it, or doesn’t mind too much.
 
It has other things on its mind, of lesser import, 
It turns out.)  Still, we are right to grow with it, 
looking forward impatiently to modernism, when
 
everything will work out for the better, somehow.
 
Until then it’s better to indulge our tastes
 
in whatever feels right for them: this shoe, 
that strap, will come to seem useful one day 
when modernism’s thoughtful presence is installed 
all around, like the remnants of a construction project.
 
It’s good to be modern if you can stand it.
 
It’s like being left out in the rain, and coming
 
to understand that you were always this way: modern,
 
wet, abandoned, though with that special intuition
 
that makes you realize you weren’t meant to be
 
somebody else, for whom the makers
 
of modernism will stand inspection
 
even as they wither and fade in today’s glare.