I still cannot get past what a shitty decision, a legacy-forming decision, Matt Williams' decision was to bring in Drew Storen to replace Jordan Zimmermann in the ninth-inning of Game Two of the National League Division Series between the Washington Nationals and the San Franscisco Giants. Jordan Zimmermann, who threw a no-hitter in his previous start, had a three-hit shutout with two outs in the top of the ninth with the Nationals winning 1-0, one out away from tying the Best of Five series at 1-1 with Game Three on Monday in San Francisco against San Francisco's ace, one of the best pitchers in baseball. Zimmermann walked a batter. He'd retired the previous 21 batters. Williams emerges, the cement-headed fool to formula, and replaces the best pitcher the Nationals have, one who'd given up zero runs and three hits in 17.2 innings, with a relief pitcher, probably a decent human being, I don't wish this on him, who is a documented choking dog. Who didn't know the Nationals were going to lose when Matt Williams, Mr We've Done This Everyday, I Don't Understand the Difference Between a May Game Versus Colorado and I Need This One Out in the Biggest Game of the Season, Who Is More Likely to Get It, the Pitcher on the Mound with 17.2 Shutout Innings or a Known Choking Dog, pulled Jordan Zimmermann?
Here's my takeaway: witness the above paragraph - though I renounced the religion and broke my priest's vows I still, in grips of nostalgia for faith, instinctively rage at a violation of faith and challenge to gods - because what Williams did
- instinctively damn the sinner for sins against a religion I no longer proclaim to believe in with all the overbearingly judgmental and uncharitable certainty in dogma I abandoned. This is me. Fine metaphors abound.
. . . . . tell you? ha! who
can tell another how
to manage the swimming?
he was right: people
don’t change. They only stand more
revealed. I,
likewise
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the light, there, at the corner (because of the big elm
and the reflecting houses) winter or summer stays
as it was when they lived there, in the house the street cuts off
as though it were a fault,
the side’s so sheer
they hid, or tried to hide, the fact the cargo their ships brought back
was black (the Library, too, possibly so founded). The point is
the light does go one way toward the post office,
and quite another way down to Main Street. Nor is that all:
coming from the sea, up Middle, it is more white, very white
as it passes the grey of the Unitarian church. But at Pleasant Street,
it is abruptly
black
(hidden
city
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Or now, when such houses are not built,
or such trees planted, it’s the doctor knows
what the parents don’t know. Or the wife doesn’t,
of the husband, or the husband, of the other. Sins,
they still call them, and let
pejorocracy thrive. Only the lady
has got it straight. She looks
as the best of my people look
in one direction, her direction, they know
it is elements men stand in the midst of,
not these names supported by that false future she,
precisely she,
has her foot upon
(He
made the coast, and though he lost his feet for it,
and the hands he’d purposely allowed to freeze to the oars,
I knew him, drank
with my elders, in his own bar, a toast to him
Or my other, the top of whose head a bollard clean took away.
It was four days before they could get him to Chelsea Marine.
This spring I listened to him as good as new, as fresh as it’s always been
to hear him talk of the sea. He was puttering in his garden when I came up,
looking over his Santa Fe rose. And he took off his hat to show me,
how it is all skin where his skull was,
too much of a hole for even the newest metal
to cover
Or the quiet one, who’s died since (died as deck-watchman, on his vessel, in port).
Years ago I heard from others
how he’d pulled two men out of the sea one night
off Eastern Point. They’d not been able to shed their jacks
when the ship went over, and when he caught them
they were going down too. He hauled them into Brace’s Cove,
even though the shore wasn’t there, it was such a storm and the sea so big
it had turned the Lily Pond
into an arm of itself.
Last, he with muscle as big as his voice, the strength of him
in that blizzard
to have pulled the trawl slack from the very bottom and released
his mate from the cod-hook had him out, and almost off,
into the snow. It wasn’t that there was so much sea. It was the cold,
and that white, until over the dory went and the two of them,
one still,
were in. The wild thing was, he made the vessel, three miles, and fetched her,
found that vessel in all that weather, with his fellow dead weight
on him. The sort of eye
which later knew the Peak of Brown’s
as though it were his own garden (as Bowditch brought the Eppie Sawyer
spot to her wharf a Christmas morning)
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Which is the cream of the milk, of course. And the milk
also of the matter, the most of it, those
who do no more than drink it in a cup of tea alone of such a night, holding
(as she)
a certain schooner
What still is, in other words. And the remarkable part of it,
that it still goes on, still is
what counts:
the lad from the Fort
who recently bought the small white house on Lower Middle
(the one diagonally across from the handsome brick with the Bullfinch door)
He stood with me one Sunday
and eyed (with a like eye) a curious ship
we’d both come on, tied to the Gas Company wharf.
She had raked masts, and they were unstepped,
fitted loose in her deck, like a neck in a collar.
He was looking idly, as I was, saying nothing.
When suddenly, he turned to a Gloucesterman, a big one,
berthed alongside this queer one, and said:
“I’ll own her, one day”
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While she stares, out of her painted face,
no matter the deathly mu-sick, the demand
will arouse
some of these men and women
