Showing posts with label Gabriel. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Gabriel. Show all posts

Friday, February 14, 2025

But where, oh where is the holy idiot, truth teller and soothsayer, familiar of spirits, rat eater, unhouseled wanderer whose garble and babble fill rich and poor, homeless and housed, with awe and fear?

Look, these grids a vital cog in my processing and coping with the arrival of the clusterfuck I've been expecting for decades and sorting and resorting boxes, with ever more content to sort daily in my skull but the same limited infinite space to sort into, so the compulsive grids more compulsive than ever
Here, from William Gass' The Tunnel, posted every year here in celebration of his birthday, my favorite three sentences, is me, tattoed, engrained, bedded and embedded in my me
"The other large carton unpacked in the same way - box into box - but the feeling it gave me was the opposite of that suggested by the endless nest of Russians dollies it otherwise resembled, for what I was opening was a den of spaces which now covered the floor near my feet. It was plain that every ten-by-ten-by eight container contained cubes which were nine by nine by seven, and eight by eight by six, and seven by seven by five, and so on down to three by three by two, as well as many smaller, thinly sided one at every interval in between, so that out of one box a million more might multiply, confirming Zeno's view, although at that age, with an unfurnished mind, I couldn't have known of his paradoxes let alone have been able to describe one with any succinctness. What I had discovered is that every space contains more space than the space it contains"
Far too frequent reminder that when my daughter is my age as I type this it will be 2058, the Earth will still be here but will the world?
Cataloging my sins, these grids, a far too frequent reminder that all but two posts per year as long as this blog's existed tagged My Complicity (unless I fucked up and forgot, another sort of sin)
A far too frequent reminder that my life trajectory slothrops American empire, all my joints ache, especially the weight-bearing ones, I lose my balance like a toddler, I still think my better disc-golfing days ahead all I need is buy the perfect putter, I'm Rabbit dressed as Uncle Sam having a heart attack marching in the 4th of July parade, ETA of clutch-and-fall TBD but soon
IT DOES NOT HELP THAT I HATE WINTER AND I HATE SNOW AND I HAVEN'T HIKED WITH L SINCE FIRST WEEK OF JANUARY
I canvassed for Kerry in Harrisburg on Election Day 2004, this is all my fault, I did not have my apostasy until the third week of the first Obamasshole admin, this is all my fault
This not about my political impotence, this about my Foolishness & Toolishness, what I'm going to do when Act or Cower choice finally and fatefully needs made, that people are warning me to desist and delete means I might need to make a for real political decision with consequences for the first time in my life
All too frequent reminder: major bleggalgazes often result in blockage and in every case I don't think that's my motive though not dissatified with result
This is true: when I make hexjeffs I am oriented one way first composition so canvas can dry without me fucking it up and in almost every case, including the below, what incidentally was the upside-down ends up the right-side up (though they're meant to spin), for instance the below
Forgive me, making these things helps me cope most




It’s The End of the American Era. Period
"To meaningfully oppose real power is not to take some special stance toward Donald Trump, or any other individual empire manager for that matter. The abuses of the empire aren't the product of any one individual, but rather the inevitable fruits of the systems and practices that the empire is premised upon. Capitalism. Imperialism. Hegemonic control. Plutocracy. Militarism. Ecocide. Exploitation. Extraction. Authoritarianism. Propaganda"
Step One: Acknowledge the constitutional crisis. What’s Step Two?
"There's a strong argument that if every single Dem Party lifer in DC - every politician, staffer, advocate, think tanker, media influencer, pundit etc - just resigned, it would actually be better for party renewal & the world & would certainly not be worse than it is right now. An entire generation of the Democrats' professional political class has made a great living in the capital absolutely failing to prevent - and in many cases, actually facilitating - what we're now living through. It's time to just say that out loud and admit it"
Democrats ‘Pissed’ at Constituents for Asking Literally Anything of Them
"Hakeem Jeffries and congressional Dems are finally getting angry and fighting back…against grassroots democrats who are flooding their office with calls to stand up to Trump/Elon. These pathetic losers are irritated that voters want to see them actually show some life as the richest man on the planet steals our government"
"Establishment Democrats would rather let fascism spread than risk losing their bribes"
"House Democratic Leader Hakeem Jeffries announces Rapid Response Task Force co-chaired by 81 year old congresswoman Rosa DeLauro, congressmen Gerry Connolly (74) and Jamie Raskin (62)"
"We Have Found the Anti-Trump Democratic Resistance and They Are..."
"Peak Democrat brain here. That horrendous thing Republicans are doing? We would also do it, but competently. Same thing Schumer said after the Trump tax cuts, the Dem line on deportations, the mainstream Dem position on the Iraq war. Lather, rinse, repeat, as needed"
"She got rich as a corporate lawyer before becoming a senator. Then she slandered Bernie on behalf of the oligarchs in order to midwife the Biden presidency. How many are dead in Ukraine and Gaza due to the Biden administration?"
"Bidenomics foundered on ten years of Democratic reluctance to declare war on inequality"
"Nothing makes Establishment Democrats feel more 5-D chessplayer clever than playing the "we'll hit the Republicans from the right" game. It never works, no one ever falls for it, but that won't stop 'em. Because it pays off when the revolving door calls"
The Not-So-Strange Paradox of American Power and Dysfunction
How the West uses sexual violence to advance its interests
"Trump doesn't realize that he's telling Sisi and Abdullah: "Remember how Gaddafi died after being kicked out of power & getting sodomized by a bayonet? Then his body was displayed in a public freezer for days? I'd like you to sign onto my plan that can make that happen for you!"
"The US and its NATO cronies plan to kill vast numbers of people all over the world this century to get their hands on the resources they need to maintain their wealth and domination. It is essential to boycott, isolate, and weaken these nations before it’s too late"
Imperialism (Still) Rules"Why would a billionaire steal more money?” has to be the dumbest question in history
"I Don't Wanna Live In The Modern World"
The far right, the left, and the trap of electoral politics
Elon Musk’s Companies Were Under Investigation by Five Inspectors General When the Trump Administration Fired Them and Made Musk the Investigator
American professional soccer refuses to build a pyramid with promotions and relegations, a very fine metaphor for America itself
On Fredric Jameson’s pedagogyScience Will Not Save Us
"This is disinformation that is not Kate Bush it is Kathy Acker in a wig"
A Loving Caw from a Nameless Friend
The Top 100 Albums of the 1970s?
Mclusky's first album in twenty years!
There is a new William Tyler album out soon!
Missing Bryce's marbles in blender show, for years Fridays noon to three on WFMU? He's now on East Village Radio
Yesterday was Gabriel's 75th birthday, a far too frequent reminder that Car, Scratch, Melt, and Security major gateway drugs for 18 to 23 year old me several lifetimes ago





FABLE

Tom Sleigh

But where, oh where is the holy idiot,
truth teller and soothsayer, familiar

of spirits, rat eater, unhouseled wanderer
whose garble and babble fill rich and poor,

homeless and housed, with awe and fear?
Is he hiding in the pit of the walkie-talkie,

its grid of holes insatiably hungry,
almost like a baby, sucking in the police sergeant's

quiet voice as he calls in reinforcements?
Oh holy idiot, is that you sniffing the wind

for the warm turd smell on the mounted policemen
backing their horses' quivering, skittish

haunches into the demonstrators' faces?
Oh little village among the villages,

the wild man, the holy Bedlamite is gone,
and nobody, now, knows where to find him...

Lying in mud? lying caked in mud, hair elfed into knots?
Some poor mad Tom roving the heath

for a warm soft place to lie his body down,
his speech obsessed with oaths, demons,

his tongue calling forth the Foul Fiend, Flibbertigibbet
as the horses back slowly, slowly into the crowd

and he eats filth, he crams his ravenous mouth with filth—
and then he sits on his stool in the trampled hay

and deep-rutted mud, he anoints himself
with ashes and clay, he puts on his crown

of fumiter weed and holds his scepter
of a smouldering poker and calls the court to order.

Thursday, December 7, 2023

But When I Say, You Are Like a Swamp-Animal During an Eclipse, I Am Happy, Full of Wisdom, Loved by Children and Old Men Alike. I Am Sorry If This Confuses You

My latest self-portrait requires the top-of-the-line overhead scanner I will never own nor ever have access to, this the Self-Portrait of the Artist Seething before that one:




Marie, at least three of you here remember her as the friend of L's who whirlwinded dinner at C & R's wedding, screamed - SCREAMED! - at L when on a walk this past Monday when L (who, people can vouch, is abnormally nice and kind for a human) didn't agree that all Palestinians are savage sub-human animals deserving of painful death, every single one of them (Marie screamed at me a half year or so ago that I was an immoral idiot for not toeing the MSNBC line on Ukraine, What, so you support Putin? she inquired). Glad for L I was not on the hike though I believe (or at least like to think) I would have simply said, Marie, we're not talking about this and then walked a hundred yards ahead of them while Marie scolded L for not divorcing an antisemitic pig like me.

The breaking of kayfabe to militantly insist that broken kayfabe is eternal unbreakable kayfabe and the You Will Lose Your Job Lose Your House Lose the Use of Your Broken Kneecaps Lose Your Life You Fucking Ewjay-Aterhay If You Disagree Campaign going exactly as I thought it would so why am I so sideways beyond it's done in my name with my tax dollars and without my consent? Did I ever believe in any other telemetry?

Gridding the clusterfuck as much a form of self-therapy as the self-portraits though both crowd everything else out. I recognize its futility: if you disagree with me you won't read, if you agree with me you don't need and don't need reminding. When I need to quit I hope I can, if I don't need to quit I hope I don't



Thousands of starving Palestinians queuing for food in Deir al-Balah
Optimism Linked to Poor Decision-Making and Lower Cognitive Skills
ISRAELI SOLDIER BREAKS A PALESTINIAN WOMEN’S HAND
Using seawater for ethnic cleansing and genocide
"When we watch videos like this which starkly illuminate Israel’s genocidal slaughter of children in Gaza, we must ask ourselves what we can do to make wealthy, hyper-entitled Jewish students feel safer on Ivy League campuses"
Israel's 'Mass Assassination Factory'
Debunking Israel’s “mass rape” propaganda
It is not a coincidence that as America's hands get bloodier in its genocide via its Zionist colony that hyperventilating over a Trump authoritarian inevitability is increasing in professional Democratic liberal-whisperer publications
IMPORTANT: In the name of all Jews
The President of Israel vouches
Performative pussiness in defence of Zionism
The iron law of “Western” media/politics:
"Fake reports of atrocities against Israeli Jews will always receive multiple times more outrage than real atrocities against Palestinians. There’s more sympathy for imaginary beheaded Jewish babies than for thousands of real ones in Gaza."
WHEN ISRAELI SOLDIERS ATTACKED THE FUNERAL PROCESSION OF SHIREEN THE USA CHRISTIAN JOURNALIST WHO THEY ASSASSINATED
The Official Story Of October Seventh
"If you question any part of this official story, you’re an evil Jew-hating monster who loves terrorism and wishes Hitler had won. You should be censored, fired from your job, kicked off campus and disappeared from polite society, because you support genocide and you want good people to die"
Biden works to create plausible deniability as he backs Israel’s assault on Gaza
Zionism doesn't have to be Jewish or Israeli, it can be emmeffing crackerchrister American
Arab American Voters Hold Biden Responsible for Genocide and Hate Crimes
Occupation armies are weak, brutal, and stupid
History of Gaza: On Conquerors, Resurgence, and Rebirth
"I had a nasty bit in mind about Western elites eating cooked Palestinians in private compounds, then thought, Where's the satire?"
How Israel Got an Endless Supply of U.S.-Made Smart Bombs
Do venture capitalists want forever war?
Meanwhile: US breaks record for most mass shootings in single year after weekend murders
Late Republic PoliticsEconomics twilight
The Left just doesn’t want it anymore
When They Tell You Who They Are (Part Infinity)
How to be an atheist is medieval Europe
Moco's long-term plans to make the clusterfuck that is Clarksburg more clusterfuckable
Enigma for criticismModern Dogs
Loud Noises From Various Empty Vessels
FOUR DYSTOPIAN SHORT STORIES SET IN THE SAME YEAR BUT VERY DIFFERENT REGIONS OF THE WESTERN HEMISPHERE
Esthétique du MalI'm sure I've heard a Taylor Swift song more than once somewhere and she likes helmetball which earns infinity demerits and I give zero shit about Time Magazine's Person of the Year, but if she and the award makes crackers cracker, good on her
Of helmetball's heinous crimes, mono uniforms is particularly odious
Old Man Look At His Life: Neil Young's Before And After
Bandcamped (listened, didn't buy, was hoping I'd want to buy, but...) the new Gabriel, it's mostly meh but has it's moments (one below), as you would bet, I like the Dark Side better
James Tate born eighty years ago tomorrow, Dec 8, click here to see all the Tate poems posted at this shitty blag





WHY YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS YOU GOT AN APPOINTMENT WITH YOUR ANALYST

James Tate

When I think no thing is like any other thing
I become speechless, cold, my body turns silver
and water runs off me, as if repulsed. There I am
ten feet from myself, possessor of nothing,
uncomprehending of even the simplest particle of dust.
But when I say, you are like
a swamp-animal during an eclipse,
I am happy, full of wisdom, loved by children
and old men alike. I am sorry if this confuses you.
During an eclipse the swamp-animal
acts as though day were night,
drinking when he should be sleeping, etc.
This is why men stay up all night
writing to you.

Sunday, February 14, 2021

This Is How Inoculation Works

My guess is Mitch told them take the seven and be done or continue and get none
(this guy calls it a historic rebuke for Trump *and* political cowardice by Democrats
and Dem upper 2nd-tier said fuck you but then No Malarkey called, said cut this shit out
Apocalypse burnoutShitlords always resetFull empty floor, space, story between us
Raskin my congressperson, people I trust who personally know tell me he's an honest broker
that his taking point on impeachment prosecution just weeks after his son's suicide
SuperfictionConspiracy theoriesBeyond the !KungAre you a mystic?
not performative in standard sanctimonious Democratic Party treachly syrup
He aspires to leadership in the Democratic Party and was given the job to up his profile
All money is a technology of future-makingIntentionally dyingSeeding territory
Is he an honest enough broker to explain what changed? I'm betting he won't rat out Malarkey
Blame the Russians!on fucking PeasantsChildren are starvingAnthropocene archives
And a very special fuck you to me who remembered, sitting in the Covid vaccine for two hours
(Earthgirl got her first covid shot yesterday, after I hit publish - there- I'm driving to mine now)
listening to WTOP as it updated the Impeachment Trial between me bridges, ramps and overpasses freeze first
what it feels like to root for the team of my youth and liking the vroom, smelling the fart coming
Read Moby Dick w/EdCAVED!575{ feuilleton }'s weeklyvv Was Yesterday vv
I wish my stupidass self-generated password was, on Gabriel's 71st bday, carscratchmeltsecurity

 

 

STATIONED

Albert Goldbarth

It's the other ones, who soon enough return
to being happy after the funeral, that are nearest
to their own deaths—in their gaiety
and everyday distraction, they're so open

and unguarded . . . anything could enter them;
could claim them. It's the ones who weep
incessantly that are saved for now, the ones
who have taken a little of it

into their systems: this is how
inoculation works. And sorrow is difficult,
a job: it requires time to complete.
And the tears?—the salt

of the folk saying,
that gets sprinkled over the tail feathers
and keeps a bird from flying;
keeps it stationed in this world.

Wednesday, February 13, 2019

You Had to Work Hard All Your Life to Achieve It, a Power Over You Steadily Increasing in Direct Proportion to Disbelief In It






THE PROBLEM

Franz Wright

Pretty soon you won't be doing that to get high.

You'll be doing it to get dressed.

Your time-traveler seminar will be meeting in room 250
                      Tuesday three years ago.


Eine Kleine Death Music.

You're fired, actually.

You weren't born that way.

And it didn't happen overnight, no, you had to work hard all
                       your life to achieve it;


a power over you steadily increasing in direct proportion to
                       disbelief in it,

to the very evident fulfillment of your greatest fear:

you're going to live. When you wanted to quit

you could not, and when you could - 

When you could you weren't about to.