Go to the 32:50 mark of the below for what is still, though I haven't been able to post it recently because Worldwide Pants blocked it for copyright, the fuckers, one of the most posted videos in this shitty blog's history, and which, on Chris Elliott's 64th birthday, remains the official BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing Day Theme Song One (Two and Three below as well as.....)
I'll spare me bleggalgazing more and you reading it beyond I still feel compelled to BLCKDGRD, fuck me. Also Two:
Also Three:
Also too, this shitty blog's Theme Song One since day one, a few of yinz can vouch
Friday, May 31, 2024
It's So F*ck Self-Indulgent to Think You Like This Song
Tuesday, May 31, 2022
Monumental Isn't the Word, But I Put a Lot of Thought Into It
Tuesday, February 1, 2022
Overtime, more overtime I’m conscientious by design To reach the heights of academe To be the captain of the team To CEO a thousand who Will do the things I say to do And I will make a lot of bread And you will find me good in bed
Bleggalgaze Anthem One, of course, today Blogroll Amnesty Day, thank you Jon Swift who did me many Acts of Kind, some of you still here found me by Jon fifteen years or more ago, I know I've let traditions and gags lag of late (it occurs I probably didn't note last December's Zappadan (assuming Zappadan still exists)), if you are Kinding me but me not you please let me know, if you know of something you'd think I'd dig please let me know, this is wear (sic) I burn my jeffpeat, thank you, Bleggalgaze Anthem Two:
Tuesday, November 23, 2021
The Radio Operator's Name Is Sparks
Slowest week of the Blegsylvanian year I type this week every year but wasn't going to this year though it's also the bleggalgaziest because it's the slowest, but then I just watched The Sparks Brothers which spent five minutes celebrating one of this shitty blog's two Bleggalgazing Anthems
People can vouch. If you like Sparks you'll love them after seeing the documentary, if you love Sparks like me you'll adore Sparks after seeing the documentary.
O, hey! I have two tickets to see Sparks at Lincoln Theater on U Street on March 23, 2022 on the condition the world not destroyed by then! 2nd ticket gleefully claimed, happy laugh
I'm stupid for Sparks. Remember the guy who youtubed himself reading his poems that I posted here? Ran into him on campus and he turned and ran away, I had sent him Joyelle McSweeney's Toxicon & Arachne which he said he admired (I sent him some of my poems at his request which he praised then hinted to help me get published in small mags but I said no), and then I sent him Johannes Göransson's (McSweeney's husband) The Sugar Book, he emailed me as soon as he received it, called it an example of the disgusting disturbing trend in modern poetry (without elaborating further) and cut off all communication with me, not responding to my O, say more email, not sending another youtube of his poetry, now running from me when he saw me on campus, today in bleggalgazing (and fine metaphors abounding)
Haven't link mined since the last post and no grid today though do see this and this and this. The compulsion to post remains but the compulsion to post at regular intervals now feels like a job and fuck that. The recurrent complaint regarding the increasing duhiness of reiterating the accelerating pace towards and sheer volume of our impending death by duh depresses yes but doesn't shut me up mostly, this the slowest week of the Blegsylvanian year notwithstanding
I'm sideways too, reading Murnane again reminds me how his fascination with personal lodestar events and images is my fascination with personal lodestar events and images, when I knew I would write about the Sparks documentary past weekend I remembered the Silliman poem below so I'd have the title of the post but also remembered the last line of the poem which triggers my worse constant nightmare, the Humane Society tv ad I saw fifty years ago where a guy in a pick-up drives to a dead end, gets out of the truck with his dog, throws a tennis ball into the woods and when the dog races after it the guy gets in his truck and drives off, the dog comes back to where the truck was parked, the dog drops the ball, his tail stops wagging, there is not a single day I don't think of this and not a single dog I meet that I don't think of this and every time I think of this I'm thrown completely sideways, all my dark started then
YOU, PART 1
Ron Silliman
Hard dreams. The moment at which you recognize that your own death lies
in wait somewhere within your body. A lone ship defines the horizon. The
rain is not safe to drink.
In Grozny, in Bihac, the idea of history shudders with each new explosion.
The rose lies unattended, wild thorns at the edge of a mass grave. Between
classes, over strong coffee, young men argue the value of a pronoun.
When this you see, remember. Note in a bottle bobs in a cartoon sea. The
radio operator’s name is Sparks.
Hand outlined in paint on a brick wall. Storm turns playground into a
swamp. Finally we spot the wood duck on the middle lake.
The dashboard of my car like the keyboard of a piano. Toy animals anywhere.
Sun swells in the morning sky.
Man with three pens clipped to the neck of his sweatshirt shuffles from one
table to the next, seeking distance from the cold January air out the coffee
house door, tall Styrofoam cup in one hand, Of Grammatology in the other.
Outside, a dog is tied to any empty bench, bike chained to the No Parking
sign.
Friday, June 25, 2021
Sparks: Beware Your Hair Is Locked!
- We started, segment by segment, the Waterloo-Pinckney Trail. Yesterday we found ourselves on Sackrider Hill before I knew it the highest point on the 36 mile trail.
- Only one car we can only out and back, we've hiked twenty miles so far covering the first ten miles of the trail but since we'd never done it either way it's twenty miles of new hike. Narrow and windy and up and down by bogs and ponds and through constant loud birdsong, sweet so far.
| Pouring down rain today, all day, dammit | |||||||
| What happened to infrastructure spending? | |||||||
| What happened to defunding the police? | |||||||
| What's happening to your retirement? | |||||||
| Manufacturing (new normal) "reality" | |||||||
| The whitewashing of Rome | |||||||
| Winston Motherfucking Churchill | |||||||
| 1619, 1776, and the politics of the past | |||||||
| The house on Coon Hill Road (people can vouch that's the name of the road) clearly centered in Trumpland, it's good for me to experience a week outside of the America I live and work in. | |||||||
| They seemed like Democratic activists | |||||||
| No revelations, no insight, no bad interactions, no crackerish incidents to report, but a different vibe, yes | |||||||
| *In* Capital Hill or *on* Capitol Hill? | |||||||
| The acres we bought in flatter Washtenaw County (the W-P Trail's eastern terminus in Washtenaw), the house (and the sections of the W-P we've hiked) in Jackson County, the Washtenaw/Jackson line the border, I'm told, between Blue and Red Michigan, gets redder the farther west on I-94 you go | |||||||
| Fuck Real Franco | Cats and the good life | ||||||
| OUR CATSITTER JUST TEXTED PHOTO OF NAPOLEON TAKEN JUST NOW (AS WELL AS MOMCAT AND FLEABUS AND STANLEY AND ROSIE AND OLIVE AND OZZIE, THE CAT FROM NEXT DOOR WHO WANTS TO LIVE WITH US) | |||||||
| New | Joshua Cohen novel | and | Cohen interview | ||||
| Dan | reviews new Dumas collected short fiction | ||||||
| I've seen dozens of cats this trip, all outdoor rampant, well-fed and happy, four of them playing in the yard of a house with a giant Trump 2020 Fuck Your Feelings giant sign | |||||||
| the second of three times with a grandmother and grandfather and grandchildren in the yard playing with the cats | |||||||
| THREE HOURS OF SPARKS! | |||||||
THE WHEELCHAIR BUTTERFLY
James Tate
Tuesday, June 1, 2021
I'm So Fucked Self-Indulgent to Think You'll Like This Song
| ▲'s most posted video on this blog by a factor of X. ▲'s the BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing Anthem, has been since Day One, people can vouch, yesterday High BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing Day, traditionally the most annoying least read post of the year, fine metaphors abound | |||||||
| Chris Elliott born 61 years ago yesterday, since his last birthday I've seen him as Roland Schitt, Mutt's father | |||||||
| Despite the plague my year between Elliott's 60th and 61st *way* better than my year between Elliott's 59th and 60th |
| Last BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing day I retired the usage of "Egoslavia" and "Egoslavian" but said I'd keep the image on the blogroll but removed it a few months back | |||||||
| Last BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing Day I was painting self-portraits using only primary colors and still writing with fountain pens in tablets, now neither | |||||||
| I stopped painting when I stopped composing in tablets, and when I started writing poems again via typing I discovered - not discovered, finally acknowledged - nothing ruins the experience of accomplishment for me more than transcribing my handwriting into type which confirmed what I knew but thought a moral weakness: second drafts, even if superior to first, ruin the first, better to abandon than rewrite (I can also type faster than I can write so can keep up with my head better with my fingers tapping than a pen scritching paper so I lose less of the one draft) | |||||||
| Between Chris Elliott's 60th and 61st birthdays I quit tablets and ink to compose on a keyboard I've had two poems published and been asked to submit more by three places that turned the ones I sent them down (I also started trading poems with a poetry professor I know who enthusiastically liked mine but then I sent him some of Johannes Goransson's poems which he despised, I haven't heard from him since, FMA) |
| The grids started in December. I like them. I think they make the blog easier to read and better to look at, if you don't but are still here thank you, if you're indifferent but still here thank you, if you do and are still here thank you | |||||||
| As I type this sentence at 20:15 EDT May 31 2021 this blog (that is, this iteration of BLCKDGRD) has had 1998059 unique views, so thank you | |||||||
| If you are Kinding me but me not you please let me know, and please let me know if there's anyone in Blegsylvania, not just from our stringtown, you think I would like and benefit from reading, hearing, knowing, and not only digitally, please let me know | |||||||
| This Holy BLCKDGRD Bleggalgazing Day I'll not pretend I want to abandon my goddamn free blogging platform and admit it won't happen because I don't want or need the disappointment of rebranding necessary to move to another platform just as shitty as this one though packaged as less of an invasive surveillance tool as this one with the end result I'm just as spied on by the same motherfuckers but read less by all of you | |||||||
| I continue to maintain there's a reason all but two posts a year here are tagged My Complicity and assert this is and will be this shitty blog's THEME SONG ONE! now and forever, fuck me |
Wednesday, February 24, 2021
More for the Sake of the Cat, We Said, Than for Ourselves, Who Huddled, Shivering, Against the Stove All Winter Long
| Fleabus, best cat ever, now in shrinking, constant cuddling stage | ||||
| America's hidden gulag | Abusive narcissist | Murder spike | Silvia Federici once | Silvia Federici twice |
| Historians traumatized by history | By "domestic terrorist" they mean YOU | The 'transition' of the Elites | I had to reboot the new modem for the first time and blinking orange light turned Jesus has risen white, but now my laptop is sworn to a fuck named Jeff and can't log on to the wifi at work, wifi's allegiance to Jeff, Jeff Xfinity aka Jeff Comcast real name Jeff Finemetaphorsabound | KILL ME! |
| Maggie's weekly links | I own property in this goddamn state | and we have an address, it came with our property tax bill, either Lima Township numbers its property numbers in increments of four or we'll have to walk across someone's property to get to the other part of ours | 9 rules for the woke birdwatcher | My North Face heavy duty right sling, I think of it as left since I only see it from behind the backpack, ripped 4/5ths off, saw it before the 1/5th broke and backpack flung I need a new laptop. Weeded essentials and nice-to-haves from garbage out of broken North Face's guts, transferred organs to grey-red Timbuk2, not a backpack backpack but a laptop backpack that can double as a briefcase, it's great those five unique minutes every four years when I don't want a backpack backpack because my backpack backpack I had to put to sleep. I've beem resorting the same baseball cards fifty-five years |
| { feuilleton } 's weekly links | Paul McCarthy | An Other Mystery | Traumatized by history | |
| I found my lost collected Weldon Kees searching what organs I'd left last time I abandoned Timbuk2 because while a great laptop backpack it doesn't even pretend to be a backpack backpack, I found my beloved and thought lost (I did look for it, I did!) then tweeted out a photo of the book then tweeted out his short poem *Turtle* | Chess pieces in different languages | Reading John Gray in war | Texas froze by design | Top cop confirms they'd have been in riot gear if the protesters were black |
| ISHIGURO | I get the new Ishiguro next week, I guarantee I'll fail it and will be unable to tell with anywhere near certainty how much of it will be my fault and how much the novel's. His last novel, Buried Giant, read when I always had a novel working, mehhed me, I pretend to have a novel always working now but in truth I fail every novel I start. My eyes, my head, my concentration, my damn, I'm old yes but there's more. Calls into question my current wonderfully bountiful poem readings, my eyes, my head, my concentration, my damn, my performance of myself for myself. And now something to look forward to in these days of not looking forward to anything fills me with dread because I don't trust nothing to look forward to that I will sabotage by filled grids like this one.... I want to be slayed right know I'll be slayed wrong | |||
| Bleggalgaze: grid forever until not, if I lost the cloud, medumbmotherfucker ... | Have some horny meta-pop | Read Moby Dick with Ed! | 2021 February 23 | SPARKS |
| KEES | KEES | KEES | I am completely stupid for Kees if you'd like a collected and you ask nice and I like you... | KEES |
THE END OF THE LIBRARY
Weldon Kees
When the coal
Gave out, we began
Burning the books, one by one;
First the set
Of Bulwer-Lytton
And then the Walter Scott.
They gave a lot of warmth.
Toward the end, in
February, flames
Consumed the Greek
Tragedians and Baudelaire,
Proust, Robert Burton
And the Po-Chu-i. Ice
Thickened on the sills.
More for the sake of the cat,
We said, than for ourselves,
Who huddled, shivering,
Against the stove
All winter long.
Tuesday, February 2, 2021
What Bone Looms They Sewed Themselves Into
| Above bleggalgazing anthem number two, yesterday Blogroll Amnesty Day, bullets from traditional post, last posted three years ago below |
| * Jon Swift did me Kind multiple times - some of you still here found me via Jon |
| *BAD reminds me annually of blogs whose club I joined, all of us competing to be noticed by Liberal Blegsylvania's overlords and invited to that far more prestigious club. |
| * Then my obamapostasies, my democratectomies. I let my membership lapse |
| *I hope it is still Blogroll Amnesty Day on some of those blogs still alive. |
| *Thank you those still here who found me back then via Jon, Kind, you. |
| *It's BAD - if there's someone / someplace you think I might / oughta please let me know. |
| *Bleggalgazing Anthems One and Two (Anthem One the most-posted video here - longtimers can vouch). |
| Format and tablet | obsessed me why is | tablet this tablet | true and ancient false | bereft of first drafts | biological | Which is why I say | fuck it. Motherfuck |
| and compatible comet | motherfucking Ariel | Everything is paraphrase | more cleverly than I can | the desperate resort to grids | defintion emphasized | I'm just gonna cathole here | ing Ariel, fuck uses... |
| fail most when yes bang | goog's sheets' default font? | This blog *is* the poem | Actions on the ground | elimination | This place or no place | Tablet this tablet | Theme Song # 1 VVV |
| Rest in Peace Clayton Eshleman | Two Eshleman poems | Dot | Tjurunga |
SILENCE RAVING
Clayton Eshleman
Patters, paters, Apollo globes, sound
breaking up with silence, coals
I can still hear, entanglement of sense pools,
the way a cave might leak perfume--
in the Cro-Magnons went, along its wet hide walls,
as if a flower in, way in, drew their leggy
panspermatic bodies, spidering over
bottomless hunches, groping toward Persephone's fate:
to be quicksanded by the fungus pulp of Hades' purple hair
exploding in their brains.
They poured their foreheads into the coals and corrals
zigzagged about in the night air--
the animals led in crossed
a massive vulva incised before the gate,
the power that came up from it was paradise, the power
the Cro-Magnons bequeathed to us:
to make an altar of our throats.
The first words were mixed with animal fat,
wounded men tried to say who did it.
The group was the rim of a to-be-invented wheel,
their speech was spokes, looping over,
around, the hub of the fire, its silk of us,
its burn of them, bop we dip, you dip,
we dip to you, you will dip to us, Dionysus
the plopping, pooling words, stirred
by the lyre gaps between the peaks of flame,
water to fire, us to them.
Foal-eyes, rubbery, they looped
back into those caves whose walls could be strung
between their teeth, the sticky soul material pulled to
The sides by their hands, ooh
what bone looms they sewed themselves into, ah
what tiny male spiders they were
on the enormous capable of devouring them
female rock elastic word!

