Saturday, January 14, 2012

Feeling Utterly Evacuated, Yet Methodically Structured


Tessa Rumsey

                                      Where did you grow, before your roots took hold in the garden?
                          Curiouser and curiouser, this allegiance you seem to have with rocks.
                    Bluish blooms bathed in perfection, the moon shines fresh as you melt away.


Loneliness is a laboratory; its territory is forever defined; for reasons beyond our conviction
It cannot be lessened; only redirected and made to resemble a crumbling heaven or the year’s 
Grand delusion: I shall no longer want for that which left me long agogo slow, said the soul,
That you may know the streets of your abandoned city more intimately than any joy
Or cherished season. We were in collusion, this city and I, creating a mythology of desolation;
Feeling utterly evacuated; yet methodically structured; in a post-Roman Empire; previously
Doomed sort of way—and what did the soul say, but know it better, then in a fever, go deeper. 
There are days, I told the translator, when the veil drops and I am no longer inside the No-
Place most familiar, built by me long ago, and I walk through the world as if made real
By the existence of others and the casual way a crowd pauses together on a concrete curbside— 
Perhaps one of them is weeping, perhaps another will gently reach out and twist a knife 
Into my heart and we will lock eyes, and I will fall to my knees, and for a moment
He will hold me. What will I remember? The cold blade’s cruel demeanor? My body
As it seizures? Or the gesture of my destroyer, showing me that in this life, I was not alone.


  1. Re: Tebow. Normally, I'd be in favor of events that lead to Scanners reenactments in a maximum number of social sectors, but as a Browns fan, you know the rest.

    I hope no one of serious seriousness is surprised about SOPA vs JINGOIST and spends 5000 words on why he/she/it is surprised 'cause that would just cut into twitter & porn time.

  2. Also a reminder: it's almost time for Rohn Joberts to be hit by a bus forcing Obama to choose both another SCOTUS and Chief SCOTUS at the height of POTUS 12. Please please please please please.

    May the Flying Spaghetti Monster will it.

  3. Link thanks.


    Will be vicariously not-boring to watch Brady and his satanic cohorts take a lead pipe to Football Jebus' knees.

  4. As Jack said, Tebow will have to wait one more year for the ascension.

  5. Yeah, and Roberts probably won't get hit by a bus either, dammit.