Tuesday, November 5, 2019

Nostalgia Implies a Kind of Andromeda

  • The relief not being Siegfried where forever I'm BLCKDGRD surprises me

  • the new Fleabus twiitar avatar will stay forever until I change it 
  • Peter Hammill 71 today, last year this time one of the great doses of Serendipity ever so I'll skip the Bavid Dogosian story this year, send you back in time


Brenda Shaughnessy

That is, why should they get two stabs at it while the virtuous
trudge along at half-speed, half-mast, halfhearted?

If an ordinary human can pull the fattest cashwad
out of the slimmest slit,

and the fullest pudding out of the skimmest milk,
then it might be possible
to insert a meager life in Andromeda
into, at the very least, our wide pit of sleep.
Duplicity after all takes many, not merely two, forms,
and just the very idea

of doubleness, twinniness, or even simple, simpering
regret, or nostalgia, implies

a kind of Andromeda,
a secret world, the hidden draft, the tumor-sibling,
the “there-are-no-accidents” plane we could learn to fly.
There’s always that irreducible “something extra”
to life on Earth:

The way some men won’t “talk that way” in front of women,
not wanting to astonish us with their secret man-ness,
as if there is another world bisecting ours,
living among us like an unspeakable mold.

The recent invention of the double-decker pill,  
equally effective on sunny and rainy days.

On the wall, a plural mural: a diptych of Paula ‘n’ Wally’s.  
What fallopian and what fellatino! Like a Nan Goldin oldie,
but an impostor. Okay. Why not try to offer more
squalor no matter who the photographer?

When someone’s called a “lifer” it means that person is trapped.  
A “lifer” has no real life but what do we call the rest of us?

How terrifying it is to try trying!
Which frying pan will best
kill the loved one? Which will
make the best omelet?

The books on the bookshelves are touching themselves
like virgins. But I’ve had them.


  1. 1)i wondered if that full text of a book on synchronicity that i mentioned here a year ago was still available on the web


    2)i wondered about the author's most recent book and found the following description

    Through his contact with a positive higher intelligence behind the UFO phenomenon, groundbreaking scientific information, and data from high-ranking government whistle-blowers, David [Wilcock] reveals that the earth is now on the front lines of a battle that has been raging between positive and negative extraterrestrials for hundreds of thousands of years. The Ascension Mysteries explores the towering personal obstacles David overcame to unlock the great secrets of our universe and looks ahead to what this battle means for each of us personally. By unifying ancient texts from a variety of religions with scientific data and insider testimony, David presents a stunning conclusion—that Earth is on the verge of a massive cosmic event that will transform matter, energy, consciousness, and biological life as we now know it and will utterly defeat the great villains of our time. [emphasis added]

    3)i wondered about the towering personal obstacles the author overcame and found the following precis by a reader

    David might have covered the essence of his misery more concisely in a single chapter or even a few sentences: the exceptionally bright child of creative parents, David's life fell apart when his parents divorced; he began to gain weight and stopped caring about his personal appearance; as a consequence, he was victimized mercilessly in the public schools of Schenectady, NY as the smart, fat kid; eventually he stopped the bullying by the nick-of-time application of martial arts techniques, but he was still an outcast; the few friends he made were callous jerks who bullied him more subtly under the guise of friendship; he got addicted to booze and alcohol quite early and quite profoundly, which only worsened his life; the few bright spots included some girls who, despite his overall appearance, were attracted to his "beautiful blue eyes" and the chance discovery of ABBA, forbidden listening in his household as "disco"; he attended SUNY, described as a notorious party school at the time where he was bullied again and got even more heavily into drugs and alcohol (but no sex); his life was finally turned around by two events - his sociology professor's discussions of the Cabal/Secret Government, and his (imaginary) near-arrest on drug charges; he began attending AA meetings, but dropped out prematurely, probably substituting his addiction to drugs and alcohol with an addiction far more fortunate for all of us - UFOs and conspiracy theory.

    1. speaking of conspiracy theories -- our psychopathic overlords -- it is mr wilcock's contention that these are of extraterrestrial origin, and that they feed on negative emotions - to maximize the production of these, they arrange earthly affairs to promote human unhappiness

      the book goes into detail - your local library system may have a copy of the ascension mysteries: revealing the cosmic battle between good and evil - mine does

  2. shaughnessy's poem refers to fellatino

    Tango Fellatino · Asmus Tietchens



    speaking of serendipity, as we were a year ago - the composer of this music lives in hamburg

    earlier this afternoon - before discovering this music - i received a call from my only known acquaintance in hamburg - this person may know someone who knows herr tietchens