Tuesday, November 29, 2022

Then You Are Left with an Idea of Yourself and the Feeling of Ascending Emptiness of the Afternoon

Mini-slump: splat-bottom not likely though possible, and hopeful today's later hour and a half in an oral surgeon's chair resolves most of the anxiety attending everything today. I hate it when anger's no fun and muffling. Anyway, filler-post of sorts (which means I rate it more than it is worth), get the last self-portrait off top of page, here are the weekend links I owe you, songs (and Ashbery) for my mood:

Who am I? What am I?Interwoven
Elite conservatives have *taken* an awfully weird turn?
Two years of the Fox News 2024 pre-primary
Look, I know why shitlords crank the crackers and remind you the harder shitlords crank the shittier shitlords see their future so crank the crackers harder, and I acknowledge my toolness in raging at cranked crackers, but these motherfuckers want to kill us and our shitlords will sanction much sooner than yinz thinkEmpathy & the economy
ACAB with the openly complicit aid of American media
Today in emmeffing Democrats: "Joe Biden—a self-described "pro-labor president"—urged Congress to pass legislation forcing unions to accept a contract agreement without any paid sick days, a step that would avert a looming nationwide strike and deliver a win for the profitable railroad industry"
How Did This 600-Year-Old English Coin End Up in Newfoundland?
What does it mean for a river to be free?
Emperor ElonicusRemembering Serge
They attempted Pinnacle Peak: on unfinished hikes
First FastgivingMaggie's weekly
Kathy Acker's Art of Identity Theft
{ feuilleton }'s weeklyMurnane's signposts


John Ashbery

These lacustrine cities grew out of loathing
Into something forgetful, although angry with history.
They are the product of an idea: that man is horrible, for instance,   
Though this is only one example.

They emerged until a tower
Controlled the sky, and with artifice dipped back
Into the past for swans and tapering branches,
Burning, until all that hate was transformed into useless love.

Then you are left with an idea of yourself
And the feeling of ascending emptiness of the afternoon   
Which must be charged to the embarrassment of others   
Who fly by you like beacons.

The night is a sentinel.
Much of your time has been occupied by creative games
Until now, but we have all-inclusive plans for you.
We had thought, for instance, of sending you to the middle of the desert,

To a violent sea, or of having the closeness of the others be air   
To you, pressing you back into a startled dream
As sea-breezes greet a child’s face.
But the past is already here, and you are nursing some private project.

The worst is not over, yet I know
You will be happy here. Because of the logic
Of your situation, which is something no climate can outsmart.   
Tender and insouciant by turns, you see

You have built a mountain of something,
Thoughtfully pouring all your energy into this single monument,   
Whose wind is desire starching a petal,
Whose disappointment broke into a rainbow of tears.

1 comment:

  1. 1/today i came across this tweet which i liked

    Kendra "Gloom is My Beat" Pierre-Louis

    When I was young I thought things were bad because solutions were complicated and now I'm old and realize things are bad because solutions are simple but will inconvenience affluent people (or those who aspire to be) and religious fanatics.

    2/i read the new york review essay by corey robin cited here, "empathy & the economy", on topics raised by samuel fleischacker's latest book on adam smith

    fleischacker's 2009 book on smith's the wealth of nations is available through my local public library, and is described as follows

    Adam Smith was a philosopher before he ever wrote about economics, yet until now there has never been a philosophical commentary on the Wealth of Nations. Samuel Fleischacker suggests that Smith's vastly influential treatise on economics can be better understood if placed in the light of his epistemology, philosophy of science, and moral theory. He lays out the relevance of these aspects of Smith's thought to specific themes in the Wealth of Nations, arguing, among other things, that Smith regards social science as an extension of common sense rather than as a discipline to be approached mathematically, that he has moral as well as pragmatic reasons for approving of capitalism, and that he has an unusually strong belief in human equality that leads him to anticipate, if not quite endorse, the modern doctrine of distributive justice.