I Want the Force of Attraction to Crush the Force of Repulsion

89 years ago two days ago my mother was born. If I make it to 89 I'll be alive in 2048. I won't make it to 89. When my daughter C is my current age it will be 2056. She will make it, will the world? How shitty will C's World 2056 be if the world still exists? If C and the world make it until C's 89 it will be 2082. What world? 

Tomorrow would have been my parents' 65th anniversary, two weeks from now my and L's 35th, if we have our 65th it will be 2053 and we'd be 94, when C & R celebrate their 65th it will be 2083. Earth will still be here, will the world? Holyfuck, the new Swans album, for fuck's sake play it loud

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Maggie's weekly				FRESH HELL
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British prurience channelled through a suspicion of intellectuals
2023 June 26				NEW SLOWDIVE!
Talking time: Cabaret Voltaire interviews
When Toyah and Robert Fripp cover Martha & the Muffins
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I must confess, I now like Panda Bear's solo/other projects music more than current Animal Collective though once upon a time I loved Animal Collective because the early stuff
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An almost finished Mark Linkous album being released in Sept, pre-ordered at Bandcamp, holyfuck I love Sparklehorse, this  one of my ten favorite songs ever, vouch

GRAVITY AND CENTER

Henri Cole

I'm sorry I cannot say I love you when you say

you love me. The words, like moist fingers,

appear before me full of promise but then run away

to a narrow black room that is always dark,

where they are silent, elegant, like antique gold,

devouring the thing I feel. I want the force

of attraction to crush the force of repulsion

and my inner and outer worlds to pierce

one another, like a horse whipped by a man.

I don't want words to sever me from reality.

I don't want to need them. I want nothing

to reveal feeling but feeling—as in freedom,

or the knowledge of peace in a realm beyond,

or the sound of water poured in a bowl.