Latest novel I've failed: *Huckleberry Finn,* was attempting a reread ahead of Percival Everett's *James* release next month. Other novels I've failed in 2024: McElroy's *Hind's Kidnap,* de la Pava's *Lost Empress,* a reread of Barth's *Sot-weed Factor,* Levin's *Mount Chicago,* Katz's new translation of Fyodor's *Brothers Karamazov,* and at least three others I can't remember and can't be bothered to go find. Today's headshot, gouache and acrylic ink
My eyes suck but are not the problem. I haven't watched a movie or television show in at least a decade not out of some performative moral protest but because they bore the fuck out of me and I'd rather listen to music and read poetry and novels instead and, as Life in the Clusterfuckocene saturates, overwhelms, and dominates my head, I now read three pages of a novel cognitively then ten more pages obliviously before awakening from the clusterfuck's miasma to realize I retain nothing of those ten pages and discover I have no desire to read further. It's not boredom, it's not disinterest, it's, I've told you this three times (I can't imagine rereading Vollmann's *Dying Grass,* quite possibly my favorite novel ever, where that telling you three time gag is from) I am being reprogrammed by clusterfuckaires and not only do I not resist, I'm a solipsistically greedy addict, it's kinda dark in here
[ONCE A POIGNANT CATALYST....]
Lyn Hejinian
Once a poignant catalyst was lodged in the Y of a tree
No, not a poignant catalyst - the poignancy of the catalyst, like the catalyzing of the poignancy, came later
A bee landed on a fallen peach
A beloved man struck a table with the flat of his hand
A sailor reached terra incognito without water and found it overrun with sheep
Why?
Causes pursue all wobbly deeds
last night I watched environmental documentary film "endgame 2050" - musician moby expresses opinions in it
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paraphrasing, he says something like "if people are really this evil and stupid, maybe it's just as well that our species becomes part of the mass extinction we're causing'"
sofia pineda ochoa, physician turned filmmaker, met a white cow when she filmed - with permission - for two days at a slaughterhouse - clearly an artisanal slaughterhouse, not a big corporation's massive operation
their personal encounter is one of the emotional highlights of the film
maybe i will watch the film again, maybe i will show it to missus charley [who is away this week], maybe i will write about it, maybe i will write to the filmmaker
one thing i did do this morning is look up the following passage
Ecclesiastes 3:18-21 (ESV):
18 I said in my heart with regard to the children of man that God is testing them that they may see that they themselves are but beasts. 19 For what happens to the children of man and what happens to the beasts is the same; as one dies, so dies the other. They all have the same breath, and man has no advantage over the beasts, for all is vanity. 20 All go to one place. All are from the dust, and to dust all return. 21 Who knows whether the spirit of man goes upward and the spirit of the beast goes down into the earth?
you could also look at https://meatyourfuture.com/about/
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