Tuesday, January 30, 2018

thrashing is not crazy when one is on the hook

  • Tweeted last evening by Catherine Gass, a William Gass intro to an Elkin.
  • I took the hint.
  • I've been fighting a bug. Dosed myself last night with Elkin's Bailbondsman. It helped.
  • Some of these have been here since Saturday night.
  • The strange new pathologies of the world's first rich failed state: Americans appear to be quite happy simply watching one another die, in all the ways above. They just don’t appear to be too disturbed, moved, or even affected by the four pathologies above: their kids killing each other, their social bonds collapsing, being powerless to live with dignity,or having to numb the pain of it all away.
  • UPDATE! Sorry, I don't know how bluuger reset itself, but fixed, links now open in own window. I'm an attention slut, but I don't pad stats.
  • The war of dissent: the duh of corporatocracy.
  • Why Dollar General wins.
  • How to recognize a dystopia.
  • The post-physical economy and the rise of Trump.
  • The road to manifest destiny.
  • The uncomfortable truth about Whole Foods and Amazon's food monopoly.
  • Maggie's weekly links.
  • BPD.
  • { feuilleton }'s weekly links.
  • Murnane workshop. I wonder if I'll ever recover the clarity of concentration I once had to read Murnane to full effect. And by that I mean stop the cluttering - see above - I enjoy too much.
  • UPDATE! Advice against enjoying it too much.
  • A Tribute to Edmond Caldwell (via Frances! thanks).
  • Some of what I can't talk about is much better! Some of what I can't talk about is the same. Only one is worse, and it has nothing to do with anyone I give a fuck about in my life.
  • Bug was worse yesterday, fever. Serendipitously accosted by a Hillaryite Colleague in full bloom, blargled at me. I congratulated her on Dems naming Joe Izusu to make response to Trump's SOTU. 
  • Didn't know who Izusu was but got the Joe. Fuck you, HC said.
  • Fighting a bug, but after dosing myself too with Richard and Linda Thompson I feel better.


Julianna Spahr

this is true
a man in an alley grabbed my arm
this is true
someone called me and left the phone dangling at the post office
this is true
a man stalked me
someone tells a story
someone tells a story to another person
another person says I don't believe this
someone tells the story again in an attempt to convince
someone tells
as disbelief is easy
belief is difficult, supported by constraint
but a woman knows a man stalked her
knows this is true
a woman knows her own address
her own body
her lost domain, her desires, her confusions
someone tells a story
there are things people can do to themselves
they are:
leave molotov cocktail on own yard
set fire to own house
leave a glass of urine on own porch
leave envelope of feces outside own door
send a butcher knife to self at work
send letter to health department that self is spreading VD
stab own back
someone tells this story
says this is true
self turns on self
the knife enters at a point that the self could not have reached
         but did
someone tells and then repeats and she stalks herself several
         times to convince
someone tries to enter into the information
to pass words back and forth that have meaning
fails, resorts to this is true
this is true
a woman calls her stalker The Poet
this is true
a woman describes a stalker in terms that describe herself
this is true
a woman stalked herself to kill herself
this is true
a woman is at times a man
when a fish is hooked
other fish don't see the hook
thrashing seems crazy
the hook could be the branding of a woman at a young age
         by a man
or an older male neighbor spending too much time with a
or the boring nature of life
in the story the hook is the artist's rendering of the stalker as
          described by the woman
it is the woman in a man's face
she does not know this man
thrashing seems crazy
later she realizes it is herself
her knife
her hook
her own face she was always drawing male
this is true
as thrashing is not crazy when one is on the hook

1 comment:

  1. Bark Bark Bark: The Umair article's main point: "[A] predatory society [is] the normalization of ... shameful, historic, generational moral failures, if not crimes, becoming mere mundane everyday affairs not to be too worried by or troubled about."

    This should be the focus of tonight's SOTU -- in fact, every SOTU for the past twenty years. But it won't be. Instead, the address will be a blazing example of why Umair is spot-on right.