Showing posts with label Maine 2023. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Maine 2023. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 9, 2023

Say Hi to Jock Itch, Leadership Principles, Urinary Incompetence

My batchelor party was Hamster, Landru, and me watching the Orioles lose 8-5 to the Texas Rangers from the rightfield upper deck bleachers at Memorial, here is the box score: I had recent cause to think of my baseball divorce twenty-seven years ago. Bloggiest Days of Summer ever, not just me, look at the blogrolls. Tried typing this on the least sucky notetaking app I've found, sosuckful, it, it wouldn't eat its password, I'm lazy and have cats galore, new password easy but fuck that, the fonts suck too. Maine, covid Maine, I'm pretty sure it happened and I think it was 2023, spacy as planned but not the funspacy planned, I've photos timestamped I was there. Stegblats? Decked in chays? I'm a loner, Dotty, a rebel



The correct model is a bathtub
The US plot to finalize theft of Venezuela's oil
O good, I'm going to be required to use a zoom phone as work phone
Before BLCKDGRD there was Dogzilla Wafers
August the Blog Days of Summer's blog days of summeriest month and this August the blog days of summeriest month *ever.* It's not just meFRESH HELL
An expat returns to America
Anti-ugly actionMaggie's weekly
I'm delighted to be reminded the reasons I divorced the Orioles 27 years ago remain as true today as ever (though I would like to see a game again at Camden Yards someday)
Firing Jon Miller clinched and finalized the divorce
Painting has resumed though the above done before I was alledgedly in Maine, whoever added the photos to my iPhone time-stamped to indicate I *was* in Maine did an excellent job of fakery
{ feuilleton }'s*Aja* is undoubtedly one of my ten most listened-to albums ever (and was listened to in Maine last week when we drove to Great Wass), and I love Steely Dan, unfollow if you must





BY GUESS AND BY GOSH

John Ashbery

O awaken with me
the inquiring goodbyes.
Ooh what a messy business
a tangle and a muddle
(and made it seem quite interesting).

He ticks them off:
leisure top,
a different ride home,
whispering, in a way,
whispered whiskers,
so many of the things you have to share.

But I was getting on,
and that’s what you don’t need.
I’m certainly sorry about scaring your king,
if indeed that’s what happened to him.
You get Peanuts and War and Peace,
some in rags, some in jags, some in
velvet gown. They want
the other side of the printing plant.

There were concerns.
Say hi to jock itch, leadership principles,
urinary incompetence.
Take that, perfect pitch.
And say a word for the president,
for the scholar magazines, papers, a streaming.
Then you are interested in poetry.

Friday, August 4, 2023

too old for visions I must settle for dreams


Above, the sunset from two nights ago at Seal Cove, below the moonrise same night from house in Seal Cove


Lots of writing in Maine, all spectulation, no synthesis as yet. Painting saves writing, painting dooms writing. No plans beyond no plans, defeating the no-plan plan. Song below, reminder that the best New Pornographers' song is a Bejar song. Links starting to mildew in grid box from past week or two, here:

What is feminism, at its core, but the attempt to expose gender as a nightmarish farce?
For the historical record: during the brutal summer of 2023, a coal baron Senator bragged about permitting a 300-mile fracked gas pipeline with the emissions equivalent of 37 coal fired plants and 27 million cars, says the guy who drove to Maine and all over Maine and next week will drive home to Maryland
Can Psychopathic Tendencies Help You Achieve Success?
Patrol dogs are terrorizing and mauling prisoners inside the United States
Subaru offered me a very base level Impreza at a terrific price to replace an Impreza they fucked up the recall, has a small basic NOT TELEVISION-SIZED bluetooth music box and radio, and it's love
We Are All Evangelicals Now: A Nuclear Take
Washington Post Still Covers Up U.S. War Crimes And Use Of Biological WeaponsFRESH HELL
More FRESH HELLGrid deriliction I plead guilty guilty guilry
Why the famed Appalachian Trail keeps getting longer — and harder
{ feuilleton }'sUNHEARD MELODIES
A Loss of Problems: on Amis, and others
I don't know if these are ten Best Poems of the Past Ten Years but they're good, and I vouch for Carson, Mayer, Lauterbach, and Prikryl
{ feuilleton }'s (this week's, the above is last week's)
Notes on Tone: continual crisis and American flatness
Dune PeninsulaWhy Barbie must be punished
Technically a hexahectaenneacontakaiheptagon
Rest in Peace, Keith WaldropApparatus



DIMINISHED GALLERIES

Keith Waldrop

too old for
vision I must
settle for dreams
 
specific forms
of cloud
 
(body surrounded by
body)
 
every sensation con-
ceals a dream
 
fresco
 
figurine
 
sculpture in
low relief
 
(a motor halo a
mental blue)
 
cleft in the
logical space
 
(wilderness or
wrack)
 
we have lived
on a ladder to
the window of a
room to which
the key is lost
 
(words lost
in the music)

Friday, July 28, 2023

Alone with Our Madness and Favorite Flower We See That There Really Is Nothing Left to Write About. Or Rather, It Is Necessary to Write About the Same Things Over and Over For Love to Continue and Be Gradually Different

HOTEL LAUTREAMONT

John Ashbery

1.
Research has shown that ballads were produced by all of society
working as a team. They didn’t just happen. There was no guesswork.
The people, then, knew what they wanted and how to get it.
We see the results in works as diverse as “Windsor Forest” and “The Wife of Usher’s Well.”   

Working as a team, they didn’t just happen. There was no guesswork.
The horns of elfland swing past, and in a few seconds
we see the results in works as diverse as “Windsor Forest” and “The Wife of Usher’s Well,”
or, on a more modern note, in the finale of the Sibelius violin concerto.

The horns of elfland swing past, and in a few seconds
the world, as we know it, sinks into dementia, proving narrative passé,
or in the finale of the Sibelius violin concerto.
Not to worry, many hands are making work light again.

The world, as we know it, sinks into dementia, proving narrative passé.
In any case the ruling was long overdue.
Not to worry, many hands are making work light again,
so we stay indoors. The quest was only another adventure.


   2.
In any case, the ruling was long overdue.
The people are beside themselves with rapture
so we stay indoors. The quest was only another adventure
and the solution problematic, at any rate far off in the future.

The people are beside themselves with rapture
yet no one thinks to question the source of so much collective euphoria,
and the solution: problematic, at any rate far off in the future.
The saxophone wails, the martini glass is drained.

Yet no one thinks to question the source of so much collective euphoria.
In troubled times one looked to the shaman or priest for comfort and counsel.
The saxophone wails, the martini glass is drained,
and night like black swansdown settles on the city.

In troubled times one looked to the shaman or priest for comfort and counsel.
Now, only the willing are fated to receive death as a reward,
and night like black swansdown settles on the city.
If we tried to leave, would being naked help us?


   3.
Now, only the willing are fated to receive death as a reward.
Children twist hula-hoops, imagining a door to the outside.
If we tried to leave, would being naked help us?
And what of older, lighter concerns? What of the river?

Children twist hula-hoops, imagining a door to the outside,
when all we think of is how much we can carry with us.
And what of older, lighter concerns? What of the river?
All the behemoths have filed through the maze of time.

When all we think of is how much we can carry with us
small wonder that those at home sit, nervous, by the unlit grate.
All the behemoths have filed through the maze of time.
It remains for us to come to terms with our commonality.

Small wonder that those at home sit nervous by the unlit grate.
It was their choice, after all, that spurred us to feats of the imagination.
It remains for us to come to terms with our commonality
and in so doing deprive time of further hostages.


   4.
It was their choice, after all, that spurred us to feats of the imagination.
Now, silently as one mounts a stair we emerge into the open
and in so doing deprive time of further hostages,
to end the standoff that history long ago began.

Now, silently as one mounts a stair we emerge into the open
but it is shrouded, veiled: We must have made some ghastly error.
To end the standoff that history long ago began
must we thrust ever onward, into perversity?

But it is shrouded, veiled: We must have made some ghastly error.
You mop your forehead with a rose, recommending its thorns.
Must we thrust ever onward, into perversity?
Only night knows for sure; the secret is safe with her.

You mop your forehead with a rose, recommending its thorns.
Research has shown that ballads were produced by all of society;
only night knows for sure. The secret is safe with her:
The people, then, knew what they wanted and how to get it.




The traditional BLCKDGRD Holy Day post

Ashbery born 96 years ago today, I have read - and posted - Vaucanson more than any other poem by anybody ever. The first sentence in the fourth stanza? Exactly.


2019:  My next tattoo, again cobalt blue, that first sentence fourth stanza, facing me from inner right wrist to inner right elbow, I H T W T G A D T L W L I P T D 

2020: No tattoo yet, negotiations with Earthgirl, who said I could get another tattoo anywhere on my body normally covered by clothes but please not another on my forearm and please not on my calves, had stalled when plague hit 

2020: I can tell by how I'm writing here and in and on tablets I've been reading Ashbery, a poem a day, working my way through Notes from the Air: Selected Later Poems, more than one a day in Maine, reading the ones that talk to me, not worrying the few that don't, that is all that's to it

2020: Ashbery's birthday post never a second thought but the remainder of the run of Holy Days I had a second thought for all but Gass who I've never, this recent bloom of sudden done rampant, I can hear it and read it in my head, I don't want to hear it or read it with my ears and eyes, I started the rereading of *Notes from the Air* just to see if Ashbery too, and no 

2020: All that got a second thought (and Gass, who never) will be birthdayed with all proper copy/pasting (if not (as m)any new 2020: bullets)

2020: adding this to the birthday post

2021: Read *Flow Chart* for a second time past February, I admit I started it out of duty (I'd reread everything else at least twice and in most cases more and in some cases *lots* more, and enjoyed it more than I remember the liking the first time

2021: Still no tattoo, I could blame the plague but it's me, I still love the poem, don't need the tattoo

2021: View from the deck of the house in Seal Cove Maine where I'm typing this sentence at six in the morning



2022: Still no tattoo but there are plans for a new tattoo soon, not I H T W T G A D T L W L I P T D (which still may happen) but matching tattoos w C of C's Napoleon



Also too, the plan is to be here for Ashbery's birthday for years 

(2023: though yesterday the owners told us we should rent the two weeks the first week of October *next* year and maybe, just maybe)


 

LATE ECHO

Alone with our madness and favorite flower
We see that there really is nothing left to write about.
Or rather, it is necessary to write about the same old things
In the same way, repeating the same things over and over
For love to continue and be gradually different.
   
Beehives and ants have to be re-examined eternally
And the color of the day put in

Hundreds of times and varied from summer to winter
For it to get slowed down to the pace of an authentic
Saraband and huddle there, alive and resting.
  
Only then can the chronic inattention
Of our lives drape itself around us, conciliatory
And with one eye on those long tan plush shadows
That speak so deeply into our unprepared knowledge
Of ourselves, the talking engines of our day.


Click ASHBERY for lots of poems. I say this every year: 40-so years ago someone gave me a copy of Ashbery's Self-Portrait in a Convex Mirror and changed my life.


VAUCANSON

John Ashbery

It was snowing as he wrote.
In the gray room he felt relaxed and singular,
But no one, of course, ever trusts these moods.

There had to be understanding to it.
Why, though? That always happens anyway,
And who gets the credit for it? Not what is understood,
Presumably, and it diminishes us
In our getting to know it.

As trees come to know a storm
Until it passes and light falls anew
Unevenly, on all the muttering kinship:
Things with things, persons with objects,
Ideas with people or ideas.

It hurts, this wanting to give a dimension
To life when life is precisely that dimension.
We are creatures, therefore we walk and talk
And people come up to us, or listen
And then move away.

Music fills the spaces
Where figures are pulled to the edges,
And it can only say something.

Sinews are loosened then,
The mind begins to think good thoughts.
Ah, this sun must be good:
Doing a number, completing its trilogy.
Life must be back there. You hid it
So no one could find it
And now you can't remember where.

But if one were to invent being a child again
It might just come close enough to being a living relic
To save this thing, save it from embarrassment
By ringing down the curtain,

And for a few seconds no one would notice.
The ending would seem perfect.
No feelings to dismay,
No tragic sleep to wake from in a fit
Of passionate guilt, only the warm sunlight
That slides easily down shoulders
To the soft, melting heart.

Wednesday, July 26, 2023

He Says He Doesn't Feel Like Working Today


I am in Maine with L. Best two weeks of our year. Above, Bartlett's Landing, Mount Desert Island, half hour before sunset yesterday. Hiking starts today.

We are both symptom-free but still testing positive for covid, thanks to those who've asked, concerned. Today's hike will be gentlest we know, Petit Manon, five gentle mile out and back to adirondack chairs overlooking Dyer Bay, L paints, I read or don't read and write or don't write

No plans for this space as in I will or I won't do this or that though I've promised myself whatever I do or don't do not explain (he types while explaining that Lambchop is the official house band of Jeff's Vacations as reason for the below which always washes over me and makes me cry with joy and peace) (he types while mentioning that John Ashbery is the official house band of Jeff's head (and there will be the traditional Ashbery birthday post day after tomorrow)):



MY EROTIC DOUBLE

John Ashbery

He says he doesn’t feel like working today.
It’s just as well. Here in the shade
Behind the house, protected from street noises,   
One can go over all kinds of old feeling,
Throw some away, keep others.
                                             The wordplay
Between us gets very intense when there are   
Fewer feelings around to confuse things.
Another go-round? No, but the last things
You always find to say are charming, and rescue me   
Before the night does. We are afloat
On our dreams as on a barge made of ice,
Shot through with questions and fissures of starlight   
That keep us awake, thinking about the dreams
As they are happening. Some occurrence. You said it.

I said it but I can hide it. But I choose not to.   
Thank you. You are a very pleasant person.   
Thank you. You are too.

Friday, July 21, 2023

Like a Glum Cricket the Refrigerator is Singing and Just as I Am Convinced That It Is the Only Noise in the Building a Pot Falls in 2B

The Deck of Hexjeffs project complete, I've 52 front and back cards (so 104 hexjeffs), I can put them in a box and no one need ever look at them again but me and who knows if I will except by accident when I find the box years from now while looking for something else. Commence the Hexjeff Tapes

Here's another one (w explantory haiku). Most will have painters tape canvases and all will have painters tape. Project started four days before we go to Maine for two weeks and I am taking no paint, tape, brushes, or canvases to Maine so project might be over by Saturday since we leave on Sunday. We're going regardless L now recovering from covid she picked up on a flight home from Florida (or somewhere in Florida pre-flight) and me with cold symptoms but as of half an hour a negative covid test though a positive test feels inevitable by tomorrow and threatens to delay one of my favorite Maine vacation traditions


Current rule is that I can only toke in legal states which until July 1 2023 meant only Michigan when visiting C and two weeks each summer in Maine, Maryland went legal this month, I have not opened negotiations for toking in Maryland and at the moment have no plans to, I'm happy with the current rules making it a vacation only thing, I can't and don't want to go back to who I was forty years ago
Inside the slaughterhouse: child labour in the US
It's Not The Really Blatant Propaganda That Gets You
A Modern Anarchism (Part 1): Anarchist Analysis
The desire to not go to work
ORDINARY PEOPLE BY THE MILLIONS
Will the war against rats ever end?
He's Thinking About Extinction
TIMESPACEEND OF THE TOUR
The Economics of Publishing Literary Fiction
I also like the no painting on vacation rule in an effort to not be tempted to go back to who I was forty years ago since I know I'd love painting while enjoying citrusy sativa and a local brewed lager
WHY MURNANE LEARNED HUNGARIAN
I am reading Murnane's *Barley Patch* as sherbet to McCarthy's *Suttree,* nothing else has worked, worth a try, so far so fart
Long road trip, per usual there will be lots of Destroyer and lots of Lambchop and starting this and all future road trips lots of Richard Dawson



FLIGHT

James Tate

Like a glum cricket
the refrigerator is singing
and just as I am convinced


that it is the only noise
in the building, a pot falls
in 2B. The neighbors on


both sides of me suddenly
realize that they have not
made love to their wives


since 1947. The racket
multiplies. The man downhall
is teaching his dog to fly.


The fish are disgusted
and beat their heads blue
against the cold aquarium. I too


lose control and consider
the dust huddled in the corner
a threat to my endurance.


Were you here, we would not
tolerate mongrels in the air,
nor the conspiracies of dust.


We would drive all night,
your head tilted on my shoulder.
At dawn, I would nudge you


with my anxious fingers and say,
Already we are in Idaho.  

Friday, July 14, 2023

A Mindless, Eyeless, Earless Skin-sense to Which the Crab Comes Sideways

Next novel and next collection of poetry, either one poet or an anthology, haven't found me since *Suttree* and I'm sidewaysier than normal so hunted and found angry links, feeding the sideways, links down below my left eye, here's my right eye, July 14, 2023 edition directly below



My right eye above had its painting tape ripped off and no longer exists but a facsimile does, scanned onto printer paper and cut to size and glued to the backside of what was my right eye and now is my left eye below to make a two-sided hexjeff, it’s not life but it’s not death exactly, yes?


Cheaper by a factor of four over Arches watercolor blocks, the bargain brand watercolor block is *far* superior creating texture when ripping of the painters tape than Arches, who knew? (fine metaphors abound) (these are watercolor, not gouache, watercolor leaks better (or worse depending on what you want) under painters tape than gouache, who knew)? Forgive me, I want to hand it to you to spin flip spin flip spin flip spin flip continue

Leaving for Maine week from this Sunday, not taking paint or blocks, eleven days of no eyes, no hexjeffs (though L of course will have both if my sidewaysier manic hasn't ebbed, please let it ebb, please don't make ebbing make me want to paint in Maine, Jeff). Maine - only guaranteed post: 5:15 sunrise over Seal Cove Pond and Bernard Mountain, Acadia. May a novel find me by that first sunrise. May my manic compulsion to link-document the worsening clusterfuck ebb in Maine too and rest of my life. May the temperature in Maine be in the 70s the weeks we're there like they will be next week when we're not there yet. May I develop teleporter powers to transport L and me to Mount Desert Island and then back home so I don't have to drive through Connecticut and Massachusetts. May you listen to this loud:





The Fake News about Fake News
Watch: Fran Drescher delivers fiery speech on SAG-AFTRA strike
Jared Kushner is even shittier than you imagined (and isn't it illuminating how much corporate media has assisted his and Ivana's disappearance)
Heat Safety Experts Advise Americans To Seek Privilege
We're All Mice Trying to Chew Through a Trillion Dollar Tree
White man says colored help getting uppity
The persistance of police brutality
Two-time defending NCAA helmetball champion coach can't figure out how to stop his star athletes from repeatedly getting tickets for speeding and reckless driving
"The member nations of the North Atlantic Treaty Organization – consisting of the teetering Masters of Empire and their tawdry entourage of class-stratified vassals – have just concluded a historic confab in Vilnius, Lithuania, capital of the alpha Baltic chihuahua"
Fear and loathing on Air Force One
The algorithmic anti-culture of scale
Profit-Driven Systems Are Driving Us To Our Doom
The Rise of the Warrior Cop
Harpers' weeklyDiamonds are easy
The ocean’s color is changing as a consequence of climate change
Greed, hypocrisy and sportswashing
Changeling: PJ Harvey's perpetual reinvention






SOUNDS OF THE RESURRECTED DEAD MAN'S FOOTSTEPS #17

Marvin Bell

1. At the Walking Dunes, Eastern Long Island

That a bent piece of straw made a circle in the sand.
That it represents the true direction of the wind.
Beach grass, tousled phragmite.
Bone-white dishes, scoops and bowls, glaring without seeing.
An accordion of creases on the downhill, sand drapery.
The cranberry bushes biting down to survive.
And the wind’s needlework athwart the eyeless Atlantic.
And the earless roaring in the shape of a sphere.
A baritone wind, tuned to the breath of the clouds.
Pushing sand that made a hilly prison of time.
For wind and water both move inland.
Abrading scrub — the stunted, the dwarfed, the bantam.
A fine sandpaper, an eraser as wide as the horizon.
Itself made of galaxies, billions against the grain.
Sand: the mortal infinitude of a single rock.

  2. Walking in the Drowning Forest

Pitch pine, thirty-five-foot oaks to their necks in sand.
That the ocean signals the lighthouse.
Gull feathers call to the fox that left them behind.
Impressions of deer feet, dog feet and gull claws.
The piping plover in seclusion.
Somewhere the blind owl to be healed at sunset.
Here is artistry beyond self-flattery.
A rootworks wiser than the ball of yarn we call the brain.
A mindless, eyeless, earless skin-sense.
To which the crab comes sideways.
With which the sunken ship shares its secrets.
From which no harness can protect one, nor anchor fix one.
He knows, who has paddled an hour with one oar.
He knows, who has worn the whitecaps.
Who has slipped from the ferry or leaped from the bridge.
To be spoken of, though no one knows.